did u ever understand what i wanted from u?
if u only want to bring tears to my life everyday, pls don't exist right in front of me.
did u knw ever since last wk, our conversation ended up me crying for u everynight without fail.
if u can't take the risk of proving me wrg, u shudn't haf fall for me. fall for someone u knw. fall for someone who is ard u. fall for someone who is in the same country as u. y trouble urself falling for an ordinary S'pore girl.
that's the first mistake. and my biggest mistake is to accept u when i knw there's risks involved.
i have my frens and cousins not trusting me abt u. how am i to ans their qns when everytime they asked abt u. no one knws about u except a few whereby u can count using your fingers. i don't talked abt u to my frens. i told everyone i like no one. i even haf crushes in school. but i like none. if u think im such a burden to u and someone who forced u to come all the way here, then pack up and leave now if u dun haf any intention. wat's the point being together if it doesn't come from the bottom of your heart but you are doing it just because I TOLD U SO. tell me how many times have u make the right move. how many times i have to give u hint but sometimes u just don't get it. u always told me im selfish. yes, im selfish cause i need to prove them wrg. but think, how long u wanna make me wait for u if im not selfish? till im dead then u wanna come crying at my grave? by then, it's too late. u told me u don't wanna lose me but did u knw every little thing u do to hurt me causes me to drift apart from u and think negatively of u. i knw not everyone have their perfect fantasy, but it's okay. i nvr hope for it. cause everytime i hope for it, the result will end up in disappointment. there's a few times i hope for it to happen. but it didn't. that's the reason y my ans to u is "we'll see.." cause when the day comes, u will have a lot of excuses. u dun believe me? read back the conversation that we had. and u will notice how many excuses u came up with. even if those bad things really happened, then i will hafta admit that im a jinx in your life and god is trying to prevent u from seeing a jinx like me. if u think u still own my heart, do wat u hafta do. im not gonna say much.

u want me to tell u how i feel, and this is how i feel.