on the very first day i knw u, u said i was a nerd and i remember getting angry at u. u were crazy abt my bestfriend while i was crazy over your cousin. we lost contact for a few mths and we started chatting back in November. im a changed person. no longer the nerdy girl u used to knw back in 2004. i received compliments from u and i thought that u were crazy. we gt closer each day and started to become good friends. i nvr failed to laugh at every single jokes we make. we shared every single thing abt us, daily life and even abt our personal matters. eversince, whenever i haf problems, i will look for u. whenever i was down, i will look for u. whenever there's something good that happened, u will be the first to knw. i nvr leave u out altho at times we do quarrel. but even when we were close, i still do not haf that positive feeling towards u. to me, you were my best brudder. nt until the day i found out that your cousin haf been cheating me for the past 3 yrs. i was so devastated. i feel like it was the end of the world for me. u try hard to comfort me and calm me down. i knw i can depend on u cause u nvr fail to give me your support. recently, we've been arguing quite often and to be precise, each wk w/o fail. i donnoe y but there's always things that makes me feel hurt. u buey-ed me, u make me wait w/o good reasons, and especially today when u hurt me with your words. if anyone else were to say that to me, i dun mind. but i didnt expect it to come from u. someone that i pin hopes on, someone that haf been giving me support all these while and motivate me. eventhough its just a word to u or a small matter, it means hella lot to me. u look down on me just because of the colour. i've been trying my best all these to be careful with my words as i dont wanna hurt your feelings. i nvr try to compare u with my dear Kaka just because he's handsome. i nvr said anything abt your physical appearance cause i don't wanna change u. as long as you are happy with your style, im fine with it. i didnt voice out. i was only angry when u smoke. thats all. but today, u are really straightforward. eventually, it hurt me deep inside and u can't do anything to make me feel better except apologising. haizz..
my mind is getting haywire and there's a short circuit in my brain. it's 1:49am now and im not aslp. im getting ready to show u guys later my panda eye.
anyways, im not involved with any guys and i swear abt that.