i had a good conversation with rose yday and i felt so relieved.
i told her all my stories and my true feelings. we exchanged stories and we enjoyed each moment talking to each other. she's always there for me and nvr told me "tell me later. im bzy." or rejected my calls or MIA.
with that, i really appreciate her alot. not like some friends who kept telling me their stories but in the end whenever i gt smth to share, they will just like 'nak tknk' dgr or will say "im bzy. call me back later."
she's the one i trusted most. no one knws my deep secret except her.
a bestfren do not talk behind each other back.
a bestfren is nt tired of listening to watever u share no matter hw boring it is.
a bestfren nvr raise voice to each other. (i've nvr done this to rose because we respect each other unlike other frens who is just freaking rude.)
a bestfren knws wat the other bestfren had done for her and she will nvr forget it.
a bestfren keep each other company and is nvr lazy to be with her bestfren.

lets just be honest now.
imseriously disappointed but nt hating.
i have my mistakes too.
i think i've done too much now and i think i've been patient enough with all my friends.
whenever they wanna go somewhere, i am willing to keep them company.
but whenever i wanna go somewhere, are they willing to keep me company?
i only told them to follow me coz i wanna buy some stuffs but instead, naqiah claimed that she will lose her energy if she were to follow me to somewhere and she need it for the show. being the understanding fren, i dun mind. i understand her situation so i nvr forced her.
but in the end when fatin wanna gt her stuffs for the show, they ended up going right?
so wat happened to the reason of losing energy and feeling tired.
i walked at Ang Mo Kio w/o complaining and how my heart aches to knw that this is the way they treated me when im actually willing to go anywhere with them. any part of singapore and i din even say "im lazy." thats the reason y i dun like to make any decisions whenever im with them.
and what haf i done wrg to gt someone hating me bcoz of a guy?
im nt flirting, i din even talk to him. i just sat next to him bcoz i wanna use the laptop.
wat haf i done?
i din gt near to him or watsoever.
im not even close to him.
isnt it a bit too much to say that u hate me just becoz i sat there?

i knw i may sound a bit 'watever' in this post. im totally sry.

i just need to let go wat i really feel.