another side of me.

arina said "aku tk pernah npk kau mcm ni.."i kept quiet all the way just nw. didnt talk much.i was with my PSP all the time while they were having their training.din even smile. not for once. din even joke ard. not for once.im nt my usual self. friends feel like im totally a different person.its just different.i was alone most of the time.i started to cheer up with frens but deep inside me, i knw im nt myself.with the hope tomorrow will be a better day, i hope none of my friends will see this side of me ever again. i dont want them to be worried abt me. i can see the worried-ness in their face and im so sry abt that.

truthfully, its hard to understand and see the everyday pain im going through. im known to be a happy go lucky person and no one thought i could be in this kind of situation. be in my position and u will feel it. =)