i'd rather be your friend.

did u guys watch the news?
Phillipines is now in a bad condition. im getting so worried abt my cousins, uncles and aunts over there.
ayu and lydia fly off to Phillipines this afternoon coz my uncle went there to play golf.
but thank god that the hotel they will be staying at is Shangri-La and not Peninsula Hotel.
still, i will pray for their safety. come back soon, cousins. =)

today was a rather good day coz the 3 hrs of web design lesson was cancelled. so we end sch at ard 2. we then went to ang mo kio for a while before they came over to my place. all of us slept at my sofa for like 45 min. i donnoe y but i just feel so tired today.
on a happy note, tomorrow is FRIDAY! weekend gonna start soon. novermber is ending and december is coming. time for holiday at Genting. =P

as for now, i just finished up my maths assignment and i need to do the CMS quiz now.

SENTOSA!

Vivo city.

Tram

Beach Station

footballer - syirah, volleyballer - yazid, rounder - shahrul, frisbee-er - azura, street soccer - ky.

syimah and hasbi - enter frame. =P

Amazing Race

Naqiah

the girls

happy to go home!

a night to remember

a BIG boo to MANU fan! =P

someone welcome us as if we are some superstars.

back to the city!

dinner time. the happy MCG people.

im a pest in your eye after u FORGET me.

i felt so disappointed and scared yday. but at the same time, it somehow motivate me to do better. i kept thinking positively and i followed mum's advice which i find kinda useful.
from now onwards, i will remember wat my mum said.

yday, they came over to my place to gt some things done which i wont tell u. let's just wait for the right time. i just got so much to blog but i donnoe how to start.
hmm.. starting on fri abt An's mini bday celebration at lot 1 where we bought a slice of cake from Prima Deli and end the day by watching the production on my laptop.
saturday - we all had fun going to sentosa. had tiny amazing race and most of us enjoy it very much. most spent their time at the sea and playing with sand. for us who was not in the sea, we had ball games under the heat. the weather was real hot.
sunday - i had family gathering at my aunt's place. thats where all the delicious food met. i spent most of my time eating and after which, i slept for 3 hrs. u can say that im like a pig. they planned to go to Sakura international buffet this saturday and then, head down to town to see the lights. oh, i can't wait for saturday now. they also talk about holidays where aunt asked us whether we want to go to NZ for the next june hols. that plan is still on pending.
monday - a normal school day where we had french class early in the morning. monday blues man. initial plan was to go to harbour front to get naqiah camera fixed but there's a change of plan in the end.
tuesday - nth much.
today - a make up class for french. UH! BORING!

that's all. thank you.

finally, the 5 bodies was found.
sadly, they were found dead.
one of the guy is my sch dragonboat vice captain.
it's sad to knw that they went cambodia to represent our country but ended up losing their life.
they were nt wearing life jackets because some rules din allow them to wear it as it will hinder your movements.
to think back, Cambodia should actually practice safety first.
like here, in Singapore, if u r caught not wearing it, u will be fine. that's how strict it is.
just because of that, 5 lives were lost. altho we all knw that it is not easy for a dragonboat to capsize as it is too heavy.
watever it is, i sympathized with those who are associated with the victims.

a lesson learnt: Safety comes first in no matter wat u do.

i will let time decide everything between us.

a VERY short summary.

i've been freakingly sick and i hate it soo much.
im nt able to enjoy to the fullest yday at sentosa and i dun haf that much energy to play ball games. i spent most of my time sitting and watching them. some went for swimming, some had fun playing volleyball, rounders, frisbee and soccer.
we left that place at ard 8 and we went to vivo for our dinner.
overall, i still had fun yday.

today is family gathering at my aunt's place and i ate so much.
but sadly, i din manage to taste whether the food is nice, sweet, or watever.
my taste bud got affected.
so i just ate anth.
i slept for like 3 hrs when i was awakened by my lil cousins noise. they were bzy screaming and listening to songs. -.-'
but before all that, we watched the show DeadSilence. not a bad show afterall altho it's a bit gory and has the shocking effect or watever it is.

well, thats all for yday and today. tomorrow will be another story.

im almost done with all my hws, assignments and projects. finally i feel so great coz im done with all these things which haf been bugging me since last wk.
i stayed in sch a while to finally gt the codes right my HTML assignment. while i was bzy doing it, the friends were bzy playing with DJ max at my PSP. its funny how 6 of them actually play together to gt the right beat.
they continued in the train on our way back home. at WoodLands, haikal, ilyasa, fatin and i played together. with each one in charge of 1-2 button(s). we did not use the earpiece so, everyone could hear the beat. hahaha. ilyasa who was supposed to drop at YewTee, decided to drop at CCK. just to play the game. its rather weird though to haf eyes staring at u. hahaha. we are going to continue with it again tomorrow. *wink*

i was talking to mum in the kitchen and we talked abt the PSLE results which haf been released today at 12 noon. im happy to knw that my cousins did well and they gt into express except for one. nvm Syariff, be like me! from NA jump to express and then to Sci class. who say NA are weaker than express? in fact, they can do much better than express students. hehehe. so far, the highest record holder in my fam for PSLE is my cousin, Zakir. i hope my Alysya can do better coz she's damn bright unlike her sister. i dont even study a single shit for my PSLE lorrr.. i did my paper for 45 mins and then spent the rest of my time slping. HAHAHA!! whenever i think back, i consider myself to be so dumb. lol!

as u all knw, the highest PSLE score in history is 294. the record belongs to Natasha Nabillah. this is no joke. she has wat kind of brain man! 4 A stars and a distinction. i bet she must haf studied like hell until her brain wanna burst. or maybe she memorize everything in the textbook. geezz! her parents gonna be damn proud of her. aper lagi, dier bangsa kiter. skrg, SIAPER kata melayu BODOH? this young generations of malays keep getting better and better. so now, anyone taking PSLE nxt yr dare to beat her score? 300 maybe. i will sure haf ur brain cut up for my diploma. HAHAHAH!
kids are just getting brighter and especially when it is the new syllabus this yr.
the MOE should haf Cambridge to set the PSLE paper and Oxford to set the O level paper. i wonder how S'poreans become so smart excluding me. -.-'

another story is abt Poly students who got gold for our country in international competition in designing donnoe wat. i've been reading all kind of stories abt smart students and i just wonder wat they did to become so smart.

MAYBE:
they NVR used to SMOKE.
they dun LEPAK.
they spent their time revising.
they are bookworm.
they dun hang out with friends to go shopping or haf a cup of coffee.
they must haf a boring life which is only full of study materials.
they always pray to God and remember HIM.
be positive in watever they do.
no last min revision.
and etc etc.

HAHAHA. watever it is, congrats to all who passed their PSLE. be it u r going to special, express, NA or NT. aslkan naik sec dah cukup. =P

ERAya Pictures.

i knw im kinda late. heheh.

Preparations!

our lunch.

In the theatre. (syimah & fizul)

childish look with no make-up.

the first night where we had MacD as our dinner at ard 9.30pm.

our morning breakfast. seeif u can spot me. HOHO!

star light, star bright. first star i see tonight... u knw the rest. =)

oh pathetic face i gt.

BackStage!

see KYNN! hahaha! disgusting.

before the production starts.

Performance!

the hosts during the finale.

where everyone gets on stage.

After show!

the supporting classmates.

my friends.Ms President.Briefing and after that.

everyone feels so tired and slpy.

Sunsilk Promoters.Go Home!

its the tv set that makes everyone laugh.

my new hairstylist.

random. lastly, the happy people after the show. =)

someone gotta help me.
im soo dead for tomorrow test.

im blur like nvr.

sry for the random post. i will have a proper update soon.

hanya dirimu yg bertakhta dlm sanubariku.

a quick update.

oh finally im done cleaning up my room.
throwing stuffs that are nt needed, unwanted and etc etc.
a new bedsheet on my new bed and sweeping every dirt available in my room.
so now everything is nicely arranged in order.
i didnt haf the time to clean up my room due to thos tight schedule.
now, i feel soo good. hahah.

the ERAya is finally done and over with.
everything went as planned except for some part.
im glad to knw more frens from the group.
i seriously gotta thank you guys alot for welcoming me and making me feel wanted.
you guys totally rawk. i nvr regret joining u guys.
=)

i guess im feeling better with your touch when comforting me and thank you very much for being there for me physically. there's nth more that i could ask for. atleast by seeing my face, u knw and understand how i really feel when i toldu everything. once again, thank you.

i think i better leave now. someone is waiting for me at JE. ho ho ho. =P

boy, you are a little too late. u got my <3,but u din take care of it.

Virtual Friends are Not Real Friends

Anotai Udomwittayakrai:

I don't think that virtual friends can be real. Sometimes they might be our friends when we feel upset and nobody close to us consoles us. A virtual friend might help us forget sadness, but we should think carefully that maybe the people whom we talk with on computers are pretending when they contact us. They might be lying about everything they tell us even though we are talking about real things. We actually don't know people whom we have never met. That's why we call them "virtual" friends. They can't be real.

You Don't Really Know Virtual Friends

Yi Xie:

I don't think virtual friends can be real because, first of all, you don't really know who they are. You just talk to them on-line, and it isn't face to face. Second, this world is a complex world. Lots of people lie. Maybe they just say something they think you want to hear, and you feel they understand you, You feel they are friendly to you, but maybe they only use you to fill their extra time or times when they are bored. Sometimes, when you tell them your story or secrets, you think they are your friends, but maybe they don't think so, maybe they are just laughing at your story or secrets behind your back. You can't know if they are real friends. Be careful!

Disadvantages of Virtual Friends

Virtual friends are very different from real ones. They can't help you if something happens in your real life. You cannot be as close to each other as to your real friends. When you meet someone everyday, you begin to know this person better, so you find more things to do together.

You might have tons of virtual friends, and you can lose them. You will not be upset about it, however, because sometimes you don't even know their real names. On the other hand, if you lose even one of your real friends, you will be sorry about it for the rest of your life because real friends usually come through life with you.

stop virtual-ing. start reality-ing.

i had a good conversation with rose yday and i felt so relieved.
i told her all my stories and my true feelings. we exchanged stories and we enjoyed each moment talking to each other. she's always there for me and nvr told me "tell me later. im bzy." or rejected my calls or MIA.
with that, i really appreciate her alot. not like some friends who kept telling me their stories but in the end whenever i gt smth to share, they will just like 'nak tknk' dgr or will say "im bzy. call me back later."
she's the one i trusted most. no one knws my deep secret except her.
a bestfren do not talk behind each other back.
a bestfren is nt tired of listening to watever u share no matter hw boring it is.
a bestfren nvr raise voice to each other. (i've nvr done this to rose because we respect each other unlike other frens who is just freaking rude.)
a bestfren knws wat the other bestfren had done for her and she will nvr forget it.
a bestfren keep each other company and is nvr lazy to be with her bestfren.

lets just be honest now.
imseriously disappointed but nt hating.
i have my mistakes too.
i think i've done too much now and i think i've been patient enough with all my friends.
whenever they wanna go somewhere, i am willing to keep them company.
but whenever i wanna go somewhere, are they willing to keep me company?
i only told them to follow me coz i wanna buy some stuffs but instead, naqiah claimed that she will lose her energy if she were to follow me to somewhere and she need it for the show. being the understanding fren, i dun mind. i understand her situation so i nvr forced her.
but in the end when fatin wanna gt her stuffs for the show, they ended up going right?
so wat happened to the reason of losing energy and feeling tired.
i walked at Ang Mo Kio w/o complaining and how my heart aches to knw that this is the way they treated me when im actually willing to go anywhere with them. any part of singapore and i din even say "im lazy." thats the reason y i dun like to make any decisions whenever im with them.
and what haf i done wrg to gt someone hating me bcoz of a guy?
im nt flirting, i din even talk to him. i just sat next to him bcoz i wanna use the laptop.
wat haf i done?
i din gt near to him or watsoever.
im not even close to him.
isnt it a bit too much to say that u hate me just becoz i sat there?

i knw i may sound a bit 'watever' in this post. im totally sry.

i just need to let go wat i really feel.

im currently in sch now and looking at the watch, its almost 1am but most of us are nt aslp yet.
some are playing monopoly board game, watching chucky and some even are bathing. haha.
naqiah is already aslp near me and i simply can't gt to slp no matter hw tired i am.
it was such a long day just nw and altho my job seems to be simple, i was tried enough to run and rush most of the time.
despite all that, i enjoy wat im doing altho i was nt in the right mood.

my gastric acted up early in the morning and it acts up again in the afternoon. at night, it was only cramp at my tummy. everything that i ate, i feel like vomitting out. i bought double cheeseburger and i only ate half of it. seriously, pathetic. i joined the guys in a frisbee game and
my tummy gets better + eating the medicine that mum brought just now.
a big day to all my frens tomorrow and worse still of all, i lost my contact lenses when removing it just now in the toilet. shhooootss.. i gotta seek help from rose to pass those contacts tomorrow.

till then, i just wanna rest but nt slp. lol.

im letting it go. its over.

i love u, still.

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im speechless. u knw how much i miss u. <3

another side of me.

arina said "aku tk pernah npk kau mcm ni.."i kept quiet all the way just nw. didnt talk much.i was with my PSP all the time while they were having their training.din even smile. not for once. din even joke ard. not for once.im nt my usual self. friends feel like im totally a different person.its just different.i was alone most of the time.i started to cheer up with frens but deep inside me, i knw im nt myself.with the hope tomorrow will be a better day, i hope none of my friends will see this side of me ever again. i dont want them to be worried abt me. i can see the worried-ness in their face and im so sry abt that.

truthfully, its hard to understand and see the everyday pain im going through. im known to be a happy go lucky person and no one thought i could be in this kind of situation. be in my position and u will feel it. =)

it's totally nonsense to be friend with someone who forgets u.
worse still, he's nt there for u when u got smth to share with him
he may give thousands of excuses but none of them will i believe.
so wats the point?
totally infuriating. he can now go to his other beloved friends and y still hang on to friends whom u already forget. u may say that u din forget us or watever shit. but to me, im over it. totally done with u. in friendships, we dun tend to forget our BESTFRIENDS or CLOSEFRIENDS easily. even i myself dont forget friends that i used to be in the same class with. wats more, the close ones.
ur pathetic excuses is nt working. might as well u just get lost and dun even think of bothering my life ever again.

brudder and sista = BULLSHIT!

i dun find a reason y i shud go online everyday now.

i lost my brudder, i lost my apple.

the end.

HO HO HO!

i am 'grateful' that im not invited.

just a short summary.
on fri, sch ended at 5 and as usual, i was slping during the lecture. i went to help out for the production and at ard 8, mum called whether i will be going to my aunt's place. i totally forgot abt it! i thought that the open house will be on Saturday! so i quickly rushed home altho my sch is far away from my house. i quickly took a bath when i reached home and straight away gt ready. i was feeling really tired that the only thing on my mind is my bed.i've nt been getting enough slp and i usually gotta force myself to remain awake. there's not even once where i gt an early slp. its been ages.
that explains y im getting uglier and shagged day by day.

on sat, i woke up early despite slping late. i was in sch till 4pm. i slept in the train coz my eyes can barely open. we went to lot 1 coz fatin wanted to eat long john. but i was nt in the mood to eat so i just bought chicken pie from Prima Deli. after all that, it's time to go home and slp.

now, im seriously not in a good mood.

i've been looking high and low for my kebaya nyonya which i wanted to lend it to Rya for the production. i just still can't find it. later i will look for it again.

today, since its a holiday, my fam went out with the aunties, uncles and cousins. we had lunch at Hjh Maimunah before going to the Apollo centre for a karaoke session. we went to the cashbox studio and karaoke for like 3 hrs. we sang all kind of songs. but i like it when my uncle sang the rock songs like scorpion, deep purple and etc. its like we are in a concert and i started to dance ard the room. HAHAHA. the drinks at the cashbox was sooo expensive. just a can drink which u can gt for 80cents costs $2.50 there. crazy. after making noise, we decided to go to the railway to have a drink but we ended up ordering lots of food when before that, all of us claimed to be full. we ordered 2 roti john cheese, 5 chappati, 50 sticks of satay and 4 pau sambal. ah kauu.. the best part of all, we finished it all. thanks to me. im the bin. LOL! rose should agree this. whenever she can't finish up her food, i will finish up for her. i suppose my tummy is 2 times bigger than hers. hahaha.

we then went our seperate ways. my fam initial plan was to go to Peninsula to buy electric guitar for my bro but usually during public hols, most of the shop will be closed. then we wanted to go to VivoCity. but there's a jam so we ended up going to Marina Square. we went to crocs and my lil sister bought the kids Mary Jane like mine. hers is gold. we also bought bits for our shoe. just to beautify it. i dun care if u wanna say crocs is ugly. but wat matters is that the shoe is damn comfortable. it wont cause blister at ur leg. mum wanted to buy a shawl and snow cap at Topshop but i told her "it's ugly." hahaha. i like one at stussy shop. thats much more better. bro wanted to gt clothes at Topman but nth is seriously nice. so we walked out and went to my fave place, mango. haha. since there was too many ppl there, i decided to give it a miss. but im gonna buy one of the pants and skirt. naqiah is already giving me hints to go there. lol.

my initial cravings was famous amos but since there was no famous amos, i decided to turn to Secret Recipe. i bought the cake that mum bought during my birthday last June, chocolate banana. it is still not eaten yet and is waiting for me in the kitchen. my lil sister started to make noise coz she wanted an ice cream. we wanted to gt for herthe MacD ice cream but she insisted on Swensen's after we told her that Andersen's is not halal. ader taste jgk adik aku ni.
we went to swensen's to buy ice cream for her and also bro. after which, we decided to go home.
i told dad to drive thru the longest underground tunnel which is KPE but he told us he didnt knw where the tunnel started. so, he's gonna survey it tomorrow and bring us on sat. i seriously can't wait. im gonna time how long we will be in the tunnel. hahha. kerja bodoh.

in the car, mum and dad argued abt the Pedra Branca case. abt whether S'pore or M'sia will win. mum said S'pore while dad said M'sia. if i were to judge, i will say that S'pore will win. not because im countrism or wat. but just imagine.. if u live in an abandoned house which no one claims for yrs and then suddenly someone just said "hey!! this is my house!" are u gonna let it go just like that? there's no statement that the house belong to that person. its just that no one claims it. if its really ur house,u wiill haf stayed there and claim it long before someone else stays there. it's just not right. so let's just wait for the verdict.

i heard from the radio news abt Indonesia President thanking S'pore for their help. they build a sch. i was like asking mum "why are s'poreans so helpful and big-hearted?" my mum said "maybe they just had too much money. s'poreans tk blh dgr negeri susah nanti drg cpt2 tolong." then i replied "but Indonesia sendiri lokek dgn negeri kita. lokek pasir." mum was like "oii!jgn byk tanyer! i donnoe." if can, i wanna be one of the MP and if possible, foreign minister so that i can help those country in need. hehehee. PRASAN SUDAH LAH SYIRAH!

Happy Deepavali to all Hindu Friends.

A very funny story told by mum to me.
maybe to me but not to u ehh..

this is how the story goes..

my mum said in malay abt smth but let me just translate.
at her workplace, auntie aslina told my mum abt her conversation with her son who is 4 yrs old.
her son name is JoJo.
JoJo was watching the video kekasih gelapku by Ungu at Sensasi. suddenly, he asked his mum.

JoJo - mummy, what is ChaCha sister name?
Auntie Aslina - Kak Syirah. Y?
JoJo - her face look like Eva. but mummy, can u pls nt tell her? because Eva is a bad person. later she angry.
Auntie Asline - Ok. *laughing at her son*

now, isnt he just cute?

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LAUGH!

HAHAHAHAHAHA!!

ok.. not funny. TEEEEEETTTT

for the past few days, i've been feeling really tired. i didnt haf enough slp and my schedule is really tight. whenever it comes to DSA, im sooo lost. i can't understand what she's teaching and her pace is freaking fast. its the only module that i can't catch up. i really need alot of help. altho its not an examable module, it is still one of the core module and contributes alot to my GPA.
ok watever.. ~

yday, i met Rose and Jannah, not forgetting fazdil. we met at Kallang before deciding to haf lunch at the so famous beach rd. i had nasi ayam penyet and they had their mamak food. it will be great to eat tulang but we just dont wanna make it troublesome for us and dirtied our clothes. after which, we went to peninsula plaza to look for stuffs. the skinnies there are cheaper than bugis. u knw how ugly i look in skinny jeans. thanks ah, butt. -.-'
i wanted to gt a wallet and so, we went to flash and splash at City Link. nth really captured my eyes. so i decided to go to the Roxy shop at raffles city. rose went back home with fazdil since she's so siicckk. at that shop, i had such a hard time choosing which one i wanna gt. i stayed in the shop for quite sumtime just to decide. u shud knw that im bad in choosing stuffs. Jannah chose it for me instead. ok, im happy with it altho it costs me $60. c'mon, shoot me. Jannah already told me "no shopping, syirah.." but i din listen to her. i really need to curb my spending now. im still the money minded person u knw.. =P

we had chippy curry cheesey chicken for snacks and went to Far East Plaza since jannah wanted to gt the little miss shirt. there's no stock for little miss naughty so she ended up buying little miss bad. if i were to ever buy that shirt, i will buy Little Miss Late. Naqiah and Fatin will sure do agree to this. im late most of the time. thanks to my comfy bed and damn aircon. there's not much ppl at town and so we decided to go home.

today, nth much but i do enjoy free food. hahaha. thanks, Khai.

my childhood bestfriend. 12 yrs and still counting. =)

Faizal new gf. dad says he looks like his father. my dad and his are bowling friends.
3 anak daras yg berangan menjadi penyanyi dangdut. hahah.
my bestfriends.

even though she's only 14, i think she look more mature than me. -.-'

a self timer camera taken at Fajar estate.

only 4 for the night.

lastly, the happy us. all of them are taking O's this yr. so, all the best. kesian aku.. satu org jer sesat. tsk tsk.

sry jannah, i can't attend. im really sry. im feeling guilty now.

i was in NA 4 yrs back. i remember being the top student in NA and everyone was trying to compete with me.there's some of my classmates who envied and said that i cheated in most of my tests which is soo not true. i was the top student in almost every subject and whenever someone scored higher than me, they will teased me and that person will be reallly proud. but still, the friends that i had in NA was really awesome. altho i was promoted to express in sec 2, i nvr 4gt the NA friends. i still mix with them. especially when my 2 bestfriends rose and jannah is still in NA. then i had a new bestfriend in class named Naqiah. we r like the only malays in our class. that's explain y we are really close. being friendly enough, the four of us became real close. however, i was promoted again to science class. i donnoe y they promote me to that class when actually my science is sooo sucky. hence, i started to mix ard with the chinese friends when i was in sec 3 and 4. still, i nvr forget my other friends. we still had lunch, and went back home together.
yesterday, i went out with the NA friends. too bad naqiah was not able to tag along. she got her madrasah exam. after quite a long time i din see those guys, they seems to have grown taller. they used to be my classmates and yes, they still recognize me. hahaha.they were so kecoh as ever.

i got problem uploading pics. so next time! =D