i've changed.

*taken after presentation.

i've been receiving comments from friends, relatives on how much i've changed. an aunt was shocked to see me one day wearing skirt while a best friend said that i've changed into a lady like person which i dun take that as a compliment. lol.

2 yrs back, u dun get to see me wearing heels, dressing up, wearing make up or even wear something like the above pic. i've nvr regretted on changing myself cause i knw im changing for the better and people will love to see me changing to be a girl. but the only thing that i dislike from this change is the number of eyes from guys that look at me whenever i passed them. no, im not that beautiful. a friend of mine told me that guys like to look at girls who dress up girlishly and nicely. i don't knw whether to trust her on that. but that's of coz not the reason y i wanna change. i rather get the attention from Kaka, alone. (aku tau tak abes2 kaka. krg confirm bingit!)

2 yrs back, u dun get to see me with very long hair. u dun get to see me keeping myself tidy and neat when dressing up. u dun get to see me behaving like a girl cause i was rough and very un-lady like. u dun get wat u can see nw even though sometimes, my tomboy attitude came out of nowhere. although i change to someone i am now, i still love wat i love since young and that is sports. i still love adventurous camp, trekking and everything where i got to put on shoes. and that can nvr change. i've throw away my sport shoes away as to prevent myself from wearing them. a friend said that im versatile. i can be a tomboy but i still look good. i can dress up girlishly but still look goood. and he even said i will look better in gown. hahaha. and of coz i deny abt all that cause i knw he must be joking. -.-'

and if u wanna knw what makes me change, is all because of what someone said to me. i found this in my old email where she sent me when i complained to her that i feel like im not girl enough. it's long and i'll just summarize it.

"you can't be like this till you are old. you can be rough but one day, you have to realize that guys wants a girl who look like a girl in their eyes. imagine yourself in a dress, blouses, heels, skirts and not in just t-shirts and jeans with shoes. look at how beautiful you turn out to be. and you even have the bonus point of having high cheekbones which im sure other girls will be jealous of, a perfect eyebrow w/o any trimming, a curl up and long eyelashes w/o the need of mascara, a thick lips which look good with lipsticks and most importantly, the beautiful eyes you own when you look at others.. i know you will change one day if not now.."

i don't know whether she is making it up to make me feel better. nevertheless, im very inspired by her cause she is one of the beautiful person i ever knw and she said that to me? a tomboy girl in everyone eyes who nvr think im beautiful. or maybe she's been telling ppl the same thing?

hahaha. this distant relative of mine is simply amazing.

my 2 girls also play a big part in changing me. and i knw now that i've turned myself into someone beautiful. not physically but mentally which is very important. Alhamdulillah.

i believe that someone will be able to appreciate me for who i am and not what i am. wealth and fame is nothing when u don't have the right key to the right heart.

other than that, i like the way i am now and nothing can change that.

let's shop for more dresses!