sometimes i wonder why did i land myself into this shit. i told no one about it and none of my friends knw what i exactly feel for this stranger. but sometimes when i can't control it any longer, Naqiah and Rose will know abt it. yah, as a friend they support me in whatever im doing. they motivate me but there's just times where there is a limit to all this problem i face everyday arguing with that particular person. i knw they nvr wanna see me this way. making myself drown into my misery. i wanted to get out of it. but everytime i try, i failed. i give in and in the end, i had to bear with all that lies u gave me. God knws how i feel everytime you lie to me. if im pushing u too hard, u knw the reasons y. u had 1 mth to prepare and the countless of chances that i gave u. u nvr try to make up for it. u took advantage of every little thing that i gave u.

now, tell me. do u deserve more?