My Never Last Love Life.

i bumped into a few of my pri sch friends at time as most of them live at the west area. usually i will bump into sakinah, syakilah and mostly, seri. not forgetting other chinese frens like darryl. sometimes we will stop for a chat while sometimes will just be the usual 'hi' and 'bye' or just a wave will do. most of the time they will start to touch on topics like "where are u schooling now?" "how are u?" and etc. but the very common qns asked was "are u attached?" hahaha. from there i wanna story tell abit abt my love life. in fact, its just a puppy love i suppose. all of them haf one thing in common, i dun haf any special feelings towards them.

i gt 3 exs. the first one is Muhd Faruq. u knw him.. the guy who lives opposite my block and who sat beside me back then when i was in sec 1. he din tell me personally that he likes me. he told my frens instead. i dont really like to gt involve in a relationship coz i think it was such a waste of time. im only 13 for God sake. he knws that i like adidas stuff and he is more than willing enough to save up money so that he can gt an adidas stuff for me on my bday. we gt together thanks to rose. i din knw how i managed to say "yes". i guess i gt possess at that time. it was a mere slip of tongue. hahaha. he was soo 'bunga'. we only went out for a date once. to an arcade. hahahaa. wat a memory. i nvr had special feelings for him. but we finally broke up after i told him countless of times that i din like him. but we still haf that friendship between us.

the second one is Syed Fauzi. ohh.. i seem to gt involved with the Fs boys. hahaha. i gotta admit that i have a LIL feelings for him. omg! wat do u expect? he's a damn sweet talker and im gullible enough to fall for it. dumb dumb me.. he gt attached to Mardiana first before he actually 2 time her with me. i din knw abt that. like wtf right? hahaha! he asked me out several of times but i decline. i donnoe how we ended up losing contact. when he is out of the sch, i lost track of him. i remember we used to talk till late night and geez, i haf my NPCC training the next morning. no more energy left for the morning exercise. haha. sometimes he will wait for me after sch, sometimes he wont. but nevertheless, my feelings for him was nt that strong and im nt that desperate either. so im nt really bothered bt it. haha.

the final and the last one is Khairul Idham. this guy really nvr give up huh.. he waited for me after sch, he followed me wherever i go and i gt sick of it. totally sick. hahaha. i remember i usually tries to run away from him but always fail. he will be there behind me to follow me. at that point of time, rose was with mus, jannah was with ken. im not interested with this guys and u knw me. i can nvr commit. he likes me and told my frens abt it. now, the weird thing is, how i ended up with him? the ans is simple. to make him happy and stop all his nonsense. hahhaa. but i was dumb enough huh.. i shud haf knw that if i were to be his gf, he will bother me more. he used to come over to my block and meet me. omg.. i feel so minah sak.. lepak bawah block. hahahah!!! he gave me a nice charm bracelet but i've already throw it away. in the end, i still broke up with him when i was in M'sia. i just couldn't stand to haf this kind of bf. =P

and for the past yrs ever since i was 14+ i fell in love with a guy and yes, we loved each other. i waited 3 yrs for him and just to find out that he's been lying to me all these while. i rejected number of guys bcoz of him. i cried most of the time bcoz of him. nth can beat that heartbreak of mine when i found out the truth. even though its been a mth since i find out, i can nvr forget it no matter how hard i try. i knw im selfish but i just can't help it. c'mon.. waiting for someone for 3 yrs is nt a short period of time. and what do i gt in return? just a lie. purely lies.

im thankful that i got a boyfriend *wink* hahahahaha!, my bestfriends and my goodfriends who willingly listen to my cries and stories. i think i shall stop here before i gt too emotional.