good morning humans!

i donnoe wat the hell im doing in front of this comp early in the morn.
maybe becoz my mother was shouting just now to my bro coz he can't wake up.
i tried to call out for my mum but i can't.
for a second, i thought im mute.
mum saw my hand reaching out for her and i can hear my husky voice.
its like making me so difficult to talk that i feel like crying.
i've nvr been sick this badly be4. ='(
i told her to give me some panadols coz my head was heavy.
thank god i got a mum who is good at medicine.
she knws wat kind of medicine for wat kind of illness.
well, tats actually her job.
she discouraged me to go to school.
but i insisted. i can't bear to skip 3 hrs of computing maths lecture today.
if not, i will be totally lost. im dumb, u 4gt tat?
another thing that totally make me awake is my lil sister.
i donnoe y in the hell must her childcare close today.
wat a bad day to start off with.
dad was like telling me to make a bottle of milk for her.
at first i ignored but that lil kiddy just cry and cry for her milk.
hw can i slp in peace then?!

and now, i got 2 choices.
one - don't go to school and take care of my lil sister.
two - go to school and send my lil sister to mum's workplace.

errgghh.. i wish it wud be a better day.

i just got back from masjid hang jebat. there's like a function going on there.

there's delicious food just like when u go to a wedding.

cousins, aunts, uncles was there too.

the syarahan given make me laugh coz its real funny.

i was sweating all the time coz its real humid and im not used to wearing scarf.

and mum was so 'cool'. *sarcastic*

she accidentally poured a cup of blueberry onto me.

i can feel it flowing on my body.

hahaha. everyone was looking at us. mcm kener mandi.

and once i reach home, i quickly change and look for my bed.

geez.. i feel so weak. my fever din look like its getting better and the cough is killing me.

errgghh.. u can officially see my sickly/pale face and its w/o any make up or talcum powder on. how pathetic.

im sry the plan gotta be postpone to tuesday coz im not feeling well and u girls might not wanna gt infected.
i dont exactly haf a good night slp coz i will wake up every few mins just to cough.
i almost gave up and wanted to just chop off my throat.
so in the morning, i went to mum's workplace and off to clinic be4 collecting dad's passport.
we went to Beach Rd today and i vomitted everything tat i ate.
haizz.. even my all time fave Changi Nasi Ayam Penyet din tempted me.
i guess only chocs and cake tempt me.
then we went to courts to look for stuff.

dearest jannah, im sry i can't bake the cake for u today. on tuesday, i promise. a nice one specially for u and perhaps, a better one. hahaha.

fatin and naqiah, your all time fave song, zapin usik mengusik is available at my blog. =P

what is a best friend?

best friends will always be there
but only if its true
bestfriends will always love you
just for being you
a bestfriends is always there
to wipe away the tears
you tell them all your secrets
they know all your fears
they'll let you borrow a smile
even if you havent been
talking in a while
a bestfriend will alway love you
no matter what they say
from the first day they meet you
followed by every single day
a bestfriend will take all the bad times
and throw them all away
a bestfriend can brighten up
any rainy day
a bestfriend is there to lend a shoulder
and give a warm hug
a bestfriend will always be there
they're someone that you love
a bestfriend will always be there
they are just a phone call away
but you can call your bestfriend
and not have anything to say
a bestfriend always listens
and knows there being heard
even when you dont say
one single word
a bestfriend understands
that giberish behind all your crying
and bestfriend knows
when your ass is lying
a bestfriend sees you for who you are
nothing more and nothing less
so much more then just a good friend
you know that they're the best
no matter how bad they treat you....

is this wat we called best friend? u figure it out..
if u think u r my best friend, i'll treat u as one no matter who u r. =)

i had a nice chat with midzi today.
i was surprised tat he actually beep me.
its been sumtimes since i last saw him.
he's bald now n im sure he had 'fun' in camp.
NS maahhh.. =P
ok. among all in my contacts, he's the only one who didnt agree with my nick, 'dumb girl' while others was like disturbing me abt it.
well, im not hurt or smth.
im used to it.
he actually was like kinda scolded me and said "are u mad? calling urself dumb?"
i simply replied "ohh. ppl called me tat."
he told me to ignore wat ppl said and just be myself.
its not smth u shud be proud of.
hmm.. i agree.
oh well, this is life!

a tiring day causes me to be down.
my plan to go to the fun fair was cancelled coz i got no company.
naqiah had an exam today and fatin can't go out at night.
ahh nvm.. i hope tomorrow will be a nice day to start off with.

naqiah gt me laughing ugly-ly in the mrt with Fatin.
its precisely the way how she sit .
fatin and i was opposite her.
she was wearing a 3/4 skirt.
the way she sit was unappropriate .
so we actually gave her suggestions on how to sit.
fatin told her to try and cross her legs.
she did tat but in a very funny manner.
she lifted her right leg high up and overlap it on her left leg.
she's wearing a skirt, mind you.
tat caught us laughing so bad tat the whole mrt was actually focussing on fatin and me.
we kept immitating wat she did and just laugh on our own.
luckily she didnt wore short or mini skirt.
it will even be disastrous.
HAHAHA!

she bought a skirt from farahshikin and its pretty nice.
then they shop at this shop.
asking me for opinions on the tops.
i donnoe y, but im not in a shopping mood today.
a whole day tomorrow at sch totally turns me off.

argh...

cute right the spongebob shoe?
just like me.
no.. it didnt belong to me.
how can i wear such 'boyish' shoe. haha.
it belongs to the not so cute guy, emman. hahah. im cuter than u. remember that. =P
imagine he wearing this shoe, with a yellow top and yellow pants.
he will look like a banana.
ppl will just laugh! especially ME! *evil laugh*
well, he thought that im jeloz of his shoe. but im not lah kan.
eheemm.. coz the shoe didnt make me feel jeloz in any way. its obviously not as pretty as me and not as cute as me. so im not jeloz.
*masya`Allah! muker tembok aku*
haha. ok. enuf of his shoe be4 he thinks im promoting his cute shoe. -.-
lol.

btw, my dad haf good taste u knw. he bought 10 DRESSES for me and its all nice. but i think i will only wear it in 3 to 5 yrs to come. HAHAH.

im sry i didnt accompany the both of u to the mall bcoz my menstruation cramps are just soo bad.
perhaps, some other time. =)

one style tip before u enter my school.
don't wear clothes from dorothy perkins, fox and S&K if u don't wanna spot someone wearing a similar one like urs in my sch.
thats wat happen to naqiah and fatin.
we spotted a HUGE lady wearing a dorothy perkins clothes that fatin wears today.
exactly the same pattern and colour.
she feel so disturbed coz she thought she look awful just like tat lady.
but hey, no.

today, i was declared a dumb girl by naqiah and fatin.
they wanted to pretend to be the mean girls.
u knw.. the story of 3 girls.
since i was the slowest and the blurrest, they wanted me to be the girl who is dumb. =(
ok watever.
haha.
and yea, the new classmate is not wat we expect her to be.
so we r still no 1.
=P

it just sound so wrong..

ok back to my story.
im waiting for my sweetie pie arrival.
i bet it will obviously be my baby for the next 3 yrs.
2 lectures was boring and we ended up using laptops for entertaiment.
the lecturer dont even care.
we even took pics while he was giving his lecture.
hahaha! talk, crap and etc.
i dun think i even listen to any single words he said.
and oh yes, can someone pls tell tat butch to look at herself in the mirror be4 she tries to attract our attention. -.-

presenting to u the IT PLASTICS .



i think im the only one who look like a retard. =P

it's amazing to knw that my own apple gave up on me easily w/o even trying to coax me.
im starting to agree that being in love is just a pure waste of time and its also not the right time.
too young, too early to decide anth.
perhaps, true love really nvr exist.
he's harsh most of the time and he thinks that i dun haf a heart which really makes me feel so deeply hurt.
imagine ur own bf telling u that.
u feel everything is turning upside down.
the impact is just so great.
its such an insult as its the same as saying tat u r like an animal.
but even animal haf a heart and feelings.
so it goes to show that im worst than animal.
no one ever said tat to me but he did.
how wonderful. *applause*
whenever i say smth, he will jump to conclusion tat i dun believe him or im talking rot.
well, watever i say may not be true and i just want his opinion.
but it seems tat he don't unds.
im not blaming him.
its not his fault anyway. im the one who got problem here, mentally and msn don't show how u feel.
so dear friends, u gt a really problematic and immature friend here.
its ME!
=)

one day, i might just go berserk.

naqiah came over yday while i was slping.
after a few mins, fatin came.
we did our innovation project slides and haf such a good time.
with nothing to do, we took videos and pics.
real funny.
then we surf the net and landed in youtube.
we can't stop looking at siti nurhaliza and we r really impress with her.
in short, she's our idol.
those who dun like her are simply jeloz of her.
it seems like shes flawless altho i knw no human is perfect.
we looked at different video and intended to see the oldies video.
omg! they r really fashion disaster.
with thse kind of big and permed hair and a very 'orbit' outfit.
hahah. but tats the trend last time.

we got stuck to the song Janji Manismu (again!).
this time, we sang the song and watch the video seeing how enthu they were.
that song won the best song during our year 1990.
maybe tats y we like it so much.
who knws..

well, i want to listen to the song again.
till then, gud morning and haf a nice day ahead. =)

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-.-

imagine...

life without dreams.
live with lies and sanity hang by a thread.
a freewheeling life is wat u hope for but nvr work for it.

oh, wat an indescribable feeling..

the first week of school was seriously hectic.
maybe im not use to going back to school.
the heavy bags, and all.
and now, my both shoulders are suffering.
due to the lecture notes which we just collected.
i hate Manufacturing Process notes coz its seriously too thick.

naqiah and fatin haf been asking me everyday wat to wear and they are just so worried thay they will dress wrgly.
perhaps they don't wanna be a fashion disaster.
but they are one hot, hip and happening person.
so no matter wat, they will still look good.

first day was lectures day.
i dozed off during one of the lecture and took pics when im bored or perhaps just talk nonsense.
second day is almost the same as first day.
wednesday was club crawl where we gt to see cute guys.
hahah. no! tats not the main purpose.
i set my mind to join either squash or floorball.
no clubs cca for me. u knw.. they r just so boring! -.-

yesterday we ended early. naqiah went home while fatin n i went to town with our heavy bags.
y? because someone misses us badly.. awww.. hahah.
we crap, talk, joke, laugh at the McCafe till evening.
our current fave word "bitches."
and oh yes 'bitches', if u dun want me to feel weak, gt me a fresh milk everytime we go out coz w/o tat i can't crap ard and make u guys laugh. BWAHAHA!
overall, i had fantastic wk in sch and also outside sch.

club crawl was cool.
u knw y?
there's lots of cute guys. hahaha. [don be jeloz, feran. =P]
well, thats nt the main point of club crawl but to join cca.
i took 3 and its so not confirm whether i will go for it or nt.
Personal Development[PD] lesson was great especially when the teacher is absolutely interesting and funny.
i like the way she pronounce my name. its like so perfect.
PD is obviously better than english coz we do no need to do essays, compre and all that.
i dun like principles of computing.

McSpicy and bandung make me mad. -.-

the lecture on fundamental networking makes me fall aslp and i only woke up when it has ended.
somehow, my brain seems rusty now while i was doing computing maths.
it takes me quite sometime to gt it.
wat u expect.. 5 MONTHS i din study.
the most funniest thing abt fatin and me is tat we din bring pencil box coz all our stationaries are gone but instead we bring our make up kit altho i dun haf much make up like fatin.
hahaha.
well, sch starts at 2 tomorrow.
wat a day!
fred perry bag, here i come. u will be officially be use by me tomorrow. hehehe.

btw, according to naqiah and fatin, there's no cute guys in my sch currently. -.-

i'm so excited and also nervous.
it will be a new beginning.
simply can't wait.
but the most best part is tat sch starts at 1pm tomorrow.
however, it will end late.
for watever shit, im able to slp late tonight and to enjoy a nice conversation with feran.
i had a hard time thinking of wat to wear and wat to bring tomorrow.
if this is to go on for the next 3 yrs, i will eventually be mad.

after all, i'm going to the next step of my education and i cant believe that im growing up to be a better person in life. =D

the meeting with gfs was awesome.
i really like it.
it seems like a reunion.
altho its pouring, we managed to stay dry thanks to the underpass.
initial plan was to go to the flea market but the weather was soooo warm after the rain stopped.
so we went to cineleisure instead.
window shop for a while coz i was given a warning not to buy anth.
since rose can't spend much, she look ard and spot things which she like.
after that, she will tell her bf a hint on those things that she like thinking that he will buy for her.
well, he actually did.
hahaha. naqiah and i was just laughing to ourselves.

craving for ice-cream and we had one at Haagen Dasz.
that's when jannah had to leave for a family gathering.
a trip to esplanade was great coz its been months since i went there.
its either im bzy with work, exams or simply lazy to go there for the past few mths.
chill out at McCafe and crap ard.
especially when rose pronounce the word connect as u knw.. the malay word.
we laugh so loud tat everyone look at us.
tak siuman btol perempuan ni semuer.
we left during maghrib.
its raining so heavily.
totally drenched.
so we suffer in the bus.
shivering non stop.

then had an outing with fam till morn w/o any min of rest.
so im really tired now. but i still wanna chat with apple.i dun wanna be a troublemaker or be a bad 'guy'. watever u wanna say or do, i haf no right to interfere. so lets just end it once and for all. im really tired dragging it. its ur problem to be friend with who. i give up! i dun wanna say or comment on anything.

i think i shud blame lydia for getting me hook up with the song janji manismu by aishah..
i listen to it when im using the comp, lying on bed listening to ipod and on the way to any parts of s'pore listening to the mp3 available at my hp repeatedly.
the lyrics can simply move me to tears altho im not heartbroken or watever.
watever written, it is a fact that most of us went thru be4 or maybe in time to come.

Oh dunia ini
Penuh kepalsuan
Oh mungkinkah tiada
Keikhlasan
Apakah ini
Suatu pembalasan
Ku sedar kebesaranMu

Tuhan
Aku bagai seorang
Kembara jalanan
Terumbang ambing
Di lautan gelora
Mencari kebahagiaan
Dahan untuk menumpang kasih
Mungkinkah suratan
Hidup kau selalu keseorangan

Hati membeku mengingatkan
Kata janji manismu... oh...
Ku dilambung angan-angan
Belaian kasih sayang suci darimu
Oh kejamnya

Lidah tidak bertulang
Ucapan cinta menghiris kalbu
Ku kan pergi membawa diri
Cinta di hati terkubur lagi

Tidak ku fahami
Mengapa terjadi
Peristiwa pahit mengguris hati
Jalanan hidup ini
Sudah tertulis
Ku tempuhi dengan kesabaran
Kusedar kebesaranMu Tuhan...

lesson learnt: don't trust sweet talker.

it was such a tiring day.
i went for a badminton game today with them and oh boy, im beat.
the boys came over to my house coz mum actually invited them over to eat.
after all that, we watched Amazing Race All Stars and Prison Break.
and so, that's the reason y i online late.
i hope u dun mind, apple.
im really sry.

p/s. happy 'handsome' & 'sexy' 17 Emman. u are an old man now. hahaha! =D

i was browsing thru the orientation pictures and i personally like this the best.
a bunch of malay ppl in my class. no one excluded.
omg! my classmates are simply awesome.
i really can't wait to meet them again when sch open next week.
we will be having an outing tomorrow but im not sure if im going coz im plain lazy.

anyways, did u guys watch soccer this morning?
i can't believe tat ManUtd actually trashed AS roma 7-1!
its like so impossible in the history of europe football.
and chelsea won!
its shows that my dear players from liverpool will be facing chelsea AGAIN just like 2 yrs ago.
i predict tat man utd gonna meet liverpool in the finals.
but its no fun watching 2 english team at the finals.
no matter wat, i have faith in u, liverpool!
do me proud and i promise i will go there and watch u play once im old enough. *mcm paham*.

and now, im waiting for 3 am in order to catch the game.
feran can only company me till 1 am.
so i maybe i will call up Saiful.
till then, gud nite everyone! =D

i got lots of windows popping out asking whether im feran or syirah.
currently, im syirah inside feran's body.
we got our soul mixed up.
hahaha! =P

well, get back to my story.
i went to Novena Square 2 shopping centre today to get my hair done.
i dyed it red and the owner had my hair rebonded again for free.
i din ask for anth but just tell her to dye my hair.
and she keep saying, "wah! u cantik ah cantik. i do nice one for u."
u knw.. in that auntie's slang.
i was like, "ahh.. okok. thank you."
then i was in the saloon for like 3 hrs.
thank god i had naqiah for company.
she's always been a good company when it comes to all this.
anyways, thank you to Lau Yew Ting for the recommendation.

going was as hectic as ever with our crazy-ness and i love it.
u will make a perfect 'bf' for me. hahahaha!

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im unlucky but u r even unluckier.
hahaha.
i really pity u Suraj as much as u pity me.
but u knw wat?
this is all fated.
we are meant to be unlucky.
watever it is, good luck to u and to me! =P

boring and warm afternoon.
no plans and the only plan available will be watching tv or slp.
i was suppose to go school to collect some forms but there's no one for company.
so, just heck with it.

yday was a rather nice day out with the 3 girl-friends.
we went to causeway to catch Mr Bean's holiday.
its quite ok. i like the part when he did some opera thingy in order to gain attention and to get some money. its hilarious.
do catch it coz its quite good.
anyways, it was atie's treat to all of us.
she even treated us to KFC.
our all time fave zinger and 2 pcs chicken meal.
but i dun see myself growing from all these junk foods.
i stopped at 1 chicken coz i suddenly felt like vomitting.

then we went to Lot 1 to buy some stuffs.
the bus driver really bring us on a scary journey thru sungei buloh.
u knw.. tat ulu ulu place.
got some stuffs from Helen and Yellow.
naqiah, fatin and i was staring at the ring while atie was busy choosing a necklace.
the sales girl came up to us and asked if we would like any.
i dun find a need to haf one so i said no.
fatin and naqiah said tat they don't haf a bf so it wont be nice to wear a ring.
lol. i can't help but to laugh.
and i was like teasing them and expectedly, naqiah lost the ring tat her ex gave.
she always nvr keep her things properly.
after much consideration, atie finally bought the heart shaped necklace.
its seriously nicer than mine and fatin but almost the same as naqiah. -.-
i should not recommend it to u and instead, keep it to myself. *evil laugh*
hahaha. jk.

and now, the weather makes me wanna fall aslp.

1 more hr left and off they go to KL.
im seriously jeloz.
hw cud u guys left me out?!
=(
nah.. its a guys outing. I KNW!
hahaha. but nvm, we can plan a trip in 2 yrs to come.
i hope u guys haf a safe journey and SAIFUL, do remember wat i said to u.
my dunkin donuts and souvenier.
hahah. u knw.. u r my good friend bcoz u always treat me to lots of things & most importantly, i like sharing things with u..
so, when's the next badminton match?
well, i hope u guys haf fun and share with me those happy moments. =D

the birthday party yday was awesome.

wanna knw y?

its because i won the lucky draw first prize while lil sis won 2nd.

then there's game in which my fam won 2 times.

the cake was a no no for me coz its choc mint.

minta stuffs just turn me off.

lydia was not in yday coz she's having fun with her sis and bro at KL.

so only left nisa, siti, ayu and me.

there's a conflict between nisa and siti so ayu and i had to be the middle person.

err..

we had a short chat and ayu wanted a blouse like mine.

so i told her to gt it at dorothy perkins.

but maybe there's no size for her coz she's too small.

so maybe u can try at kiddy palace.

hahaha!

oh well, thanks for the splendid bday party. =D

yday was the cousins bday.

siti and nisa.

but most of my cousins were nt there coz majority of them went on a holiday.

still, we had fun.

well, i met the baby cousin yday which my aunt adopted last yr.

OMG! she's big now and also cuter.

i tot tat she was heavy bt she's not. so i like carrying her ard.

=D

this was taken last yr.

this was taken yday.

i think not only her but i also look different.

well, another bday party today. baby april are just too many. oh yah! emman's bday coming up soon too. ehem! dah tua.. =P

I GOT TAGGED!

By a crazy classmate of mine who said tat im funny when i pretended to gt drunk.
Lol.
but sry fizul. im lazy to do the tagging.
or perhaps, i dun gt it? lol.
anyways, thanks for tagging.
i appreciate that, classmate. =D

for the first time in my life, i was out for 18 hrs! =D
the grand finale performance from the OGLs make me fall aslp.
i only woke up when the performance going to end.
it was rather boring.
after all tat, we planned to play bowling as a class.
but after receiving a sms from saiful who seems to be angry, i quickly cancelled the plan and meet up with.
so i did not buey him.
sometimes, its better to keep ur promises rather than thinking of only enjoying urself with new friends.
dont be seperti kacang lupakan kulit.
so we played badminton till 10 pm and had dinner near my place.
in the end, i ended up with bruises on my hand which is so freaking ugly now. =(

the morning breakfast at our school MacDonalds.



my bestfriend. =)

the rocking people in my class! =Dthere's a total of 8 girls in my class. 4 malays. 4 chinese.
pardon those idiotic guys.
overall, we are from DEI 0708 a.k.a. SEXY!

its such a tiring day & we have not gotten our cheering presents yet. first prize lehh.. =P

hey sexy ur so fine, ur so fine

u blow my mind, hey sexy!

feewiiit!

woi!

alright, i'll change the channel to jazz..

lets sway everybody!

when the sexy sexy wants to dance, wants to shake

blow ur head.

when the sexy ppl starts to play, we rock the house

don't play play.

awwwwwwuuuuuuu!

*dominoes effect*

we won! we won! HAHA.
im so excited.
sexy08 won!
my class was rather creative and i like it.
lets see.. fatin came up with the name sexy while naqiah thinks of the rhythm.
i wrote the lyrics.
khai suggested the movements/steps.
others contribute more ideas.
all these add up and its equal to DEI 0708.

well, i hope the finale will be great tomorrow to mark the end of our orientation. =)

(a few missing.)

ibro's words is absolutely right.
its much better today and in fact, the malay guys in my class are so crazy like us.
so everything going on within our class was fine except for the boring games.
and btw, our class name is sexy 08.
watever it is, DEI sexy 0708 rocks!

now, im worried abt my mother.

everything seems contradict now.

the orientation was BORING! BORING!
some students in my class was like not sporting and sooo quiet.
i guess its the 1st day and perhaps they r shy.
but im not really tat shy.
i was only shy when entering the big auditorium.
i donnoe y.
ok. lets not start abt the boring orientation.
i just hope tat tomorrow will be better.

so, fatin, naq and i was sooooo hungry and we decided to go to causeway pt for dinner.
all we wanted was to vomit not because the food was lousy but because we've nt eaten since morning. not tat we r pregnant. CHOY!
syirah's believe it or nt.
hahaha!
then i went home with fatin taking the bus.
there were 2 kids with their parents.
omg! they were so noisy that i feel like shooting them!
the kids was singing non stop! they dont sound like they were singing but they sound like they were shouting!
i knw kids like to sing but not to the extend of shouting in the bus and they sat near us somemore!
gosh! their parents encouraged them to sing u knw.
we were having such a bad headache due to the lack of slp and they make it worse.
as a parents, u shud teach ur child proper manners when in the bus.
they r just disturbing others who wanted to have a peace of mind.
and thank god, we alight after a few stops.