finally, it's all over. i can smile widely now and enjoy 1 wk of my break before i mug for my exams. the presentation is over. the projects too. wat a relief. just left with 2 more tests. the DE test was sucky when my circuit didnt work properly. actually, the whole class didnt manage to get the circuit to work except 2 of them. so i just did the theory and i gave up on the practical.
watever it is, it's over.
now, i can spend more time with my hubby that keeps me company at all times. =D

"im not gonna confess my feelings towards u unless u prove to me your existence.the reason y i keep u waiting. the reason y i treated u like a best friend. i don't wanna be cheated again. i don't want history to repeat itself. once is enough. lastly, i just wanna apologize if i ever hurt u."


friends? =)

Where all our fave boy bands have went to?


Those boy bands that make us go crazy over them and we never failed to buy any of their albums although we are broke. We were so young then with little income from the parents. Try to check out every magazine if it's them on the cover page and see if the big poster is their face. I really miss all these boy bands. I looked for my westlife cd and I played it. Naqiah, fatin and I suddenly reminisced about the past. How old was we when we went crazy over these boybands (BSB, Westlife, Take That, N'sync and etc). Now, there’s no more boy bands. All we can ever see in the MTV are just loud music that makes our head wanna "tercabut", our ears "pekak", our eyes "rosak". Spice girls, lovely Britney with sweet songs and Christina with great vocals all gone. Nowhere to be seen on MTV. I didn't catch up with English latest hits that much. Only those nice ones will I download. I miss that great music from great singers. To be compared to now, the music back then was much more pleasant to the ear. Everyone listens to noisy music like reggae ton, techno (oh, I hate it), heavy metal. Even the umbrella song from Rihanna, I find it irritating. Especially the part where she goes like "ella ella eh eh.." continuosly. Geezz.. But hey, im not criticizing to those who listen to techno or whatever stuffs. It's just that we share different interest in music.


so i think the best solution for me to listen to catchy and nice songs is just to tune in to Malay radio station. i think i like malay music now. hahaha.


they say "we lead a mundane life. nothing interesting. only the 3 of us."

Dream Date


mum called up and told me to go BP since there's an event going on there. it was a dream date contest with taufik. the contestants need to perform and ans qns related to Taufik like when is his bday, his height and etc. i gotta admit something abt Taufik. he's really good looking. i think better than Hady Mirza. he sang few songs like teman istimewa and berserah. with RZ as the host, u can expect silly jokes from him. like duhh~


the winner is a lady i donnoe stay where. she's sweet looking and i think one thing that makes all the girls jealous is not the date she's going to have with Taufik but when Taufik personally gave her something like balloons and bear. not forgetting he dedicated the song JanjiKu Padamu to her. and when it's her turn to perform, they dance together. not only i saw young teenage girls but also the makciks. everyone just love him, don't they?


a friend of mine actually love him so much that she bought any magazines that has his picture at the coverpage. haha. that was back then. now, i donnoe. =P

M18


this is wat happened when u become crazy after doing so much projects, preparing for exams and studying for tests.

im sorry i didnt keep u company. u didnt tell me. =(

the VBA test sux like shit. i was turning my head 360 degrees to see if anyone manage to do the qns smoothly. i saw some scratching their head, turning left and right, day dreaming, struggling to do the qns. this is wat happened when u didnt pay attention in class and surf some sites which is not relevant. especially me who kept surfing yahoo for the news and reading friends blog. i scribbled wat i knw from last min revision last night. my handwriting look like a pri 1 kid. super messy due to the time constraint and there's just too much to write. so let's just wait and see for the results. -.-'


next wk schedule will be jam pack with tests and a presentation.
as pathetic it is, we only have one presentation for this semester. the good thing is that we don't have to dress up to school which i really find it troublesome cause i gotta wake up early. but the bad thing is, i don't gt to wear my formal clothes. haha. after wk 16, lets have some time to rest and enjoy for a day before we get ready for the upcoming exams in wk 19. then.. the 2 mths hols.



time really fly so fast w/o me realizing that im getting older and ready for marriage soon.

i always told mum im getting older and she will ans "if you think you are getting old, im getting OLDER!!"
hahaha.



18, lots of things to be achieve..

im exhausted.
we've been going back late since last wk doing our projects. the deadline is less than a week. altho i've nt been doing much things at school, i still had such a big headache rearranging and rephrasing every single line and adding new sentences to our contents. too much words to say but i have a hard time to put it in words. oh, i just suck at it. i've done all the 5 contents except the negative vs positive content which i need more contents in it. im nt able to do any site because i've accidentally deleted my frontpage. bodoh kan aku? aku tau..


in school, while the 2 honeys been busy using photoshop and flash, i was busy with my hubby. playing games, listening to songs and watching vids. thats because i thought i can settle everything at home. not when mum started to tell me to do this, to do that. it just makes me frustrated. blearghh..


few things to be accomplished before the 2 wks break and then the exam.
-c# project
-web design
-DE common test
-DE lab test
-VBA test (i suck at this)
-Dreamweaver test


exams:
-computing maths(no more maths next sem!! yaayy!!)
-Business Information System (the same concept as history where u need to memorize. ERGGHH!)


see at the number of things i need to accomplish before the start of 2 mths hols. so everyone, pray for me that i will do well and be able to do all this smoothly.


=))

today french class was fun compared to other lesson. we had to do role play using french language. i summarized thru my script and just gt it into my head. im in the same team with naqiah and arina. when it's near to our turn, i was feeling so nervous that we told the other grp to go first. we had our sandwich ready, set up the table like a romantic dinner with flowers in the middle of the table instead of candle(maybe could gain us some marks. hehehe). the whole acting was funny with ppl teasing us. saying naqiah look like a maid with her apron but she didnt look like one anyways. with them laughing at arina's expression and tone coz to me, she look quite cute. and with the lecturer laughing at me with my serious expression when i said "Ah oui! mais c'est Paris ici!!" maybe i look dumb. HAHA.

one good news, school is closing in 2 wks time. this call for a celebration, honey.

i can barely move my left hand that much after one 'nice' injection from the enemy. i haf difficulty when slping especially when i need to turn to the left. i heard it gonna lasts for 3 days. so to those who love to pinch me and punch me, pls avoid the left hand if u dont want me to lose my left hand and become retarded.

mum was really in a good mood yday because she treated my aunts, uncles, cousins and us to a meal at Bedok corner(i bet naqiah is swallowing 1 ton of her saliva if she's readng this.)but the seafood there is sooo slack that my dad decided to 'PANGKAH'them. oh oh, Adam Rd is still the best for their BBQ seafood. we ordered pizzas, spaghetti, oyster and all kinds of food but im still nt really that full. if normal person 'tank' is 1.5L, i suppose mine is the MPV 'tank', 1.8L. HAHA.

after which, we went to East Coast Park. its 11.30pm but the area there is like 11.30am. it was soo packed and everyone is bzy with their own activities. there's kid's game and i wanted to ride the kiddy viking that makes naqiah screams in her vid but it was closed when i waited for mum and aunt to gt out from the toilet. tsk tsk. we then 'lek2'(sound so minah) at McCafe and its on mum again. when the clock strikes 12, we sang birthday song for bro and yes, he's 16 now. barely 2 yrs gap between us cause i havent turn 18 yet. did i hear my aunt right abt bringing me to HK Disneyland during the June hols? oh yess!! haha.

we left that place at ard 12.45am cause my uncle got a flight today at 10.30am. dad went to Kallang to watch like a motorbike racing but its like a pocket bike or smth while i stayed in the car after seeing much minah rep and mat rep behaving like shit. i slept in the car for a while and tup tup tup, we already reach home.
i went online but someone was already aslp that no amount of nudges can wake him up. HAHA.

its a bright sunday and oh, happy birthday little brother. no matter how tall u r right now, u r still little in my eye. =P

if u knw, if u understand maturely, u will knw the reasons y.
i might as well jump down from the westin hotel and comes out in the headlines rather than to like u.
u dun bother abt me, u dun wanna listen to anything, then y shud i bother abt u and behave just like an owl who dont slp in order to listen to wat u gotta say. i might as well haf a nice slp and meet my prince charming in disneyland. being in my own castle and wearing a huge gown with glass slippers on. u only wants me to listen to u. but when i haf smth to share, u left and instead, u meet that liar when u can meet him every min if u want to or just stay with him if u like him so much.

i change? yess. but only to u, msn friend.

p/s. i've deleted him, i throw away everything and i've already move on leaving him in my past.

i went to school today feeling so worried but i pretended to relax myself.
i gt to sit for 2 tests today which is BIS and also internet computing. we tried to study in the train but ended up talking abt quite a number of stuffs. so we abandoned our plan to study.
the BIS test was such a disaster. although its only MCQ, the questions required us to memorize the meaning of a particular word and the ans is almost the same. i sat next to Ilyasa and we had such a hard time figuring out wats the ans. i suppose the @ paper is much difficult than # paper. so i did the normal stuff which is tikam2.
right after that, we had internet computing test. i sat next to him AGAIN.
we copied each other and we finish it in less than half an hr. HAHA! shhh...
we gotta thank the teacher for helping us quite alot by giving us useful tip.

the 'i thought' easy test turn out to be a disaster.
the 'i thought' difficult test, turn out to be chicken kind.

now, im currently in IC class. talking craps to Yasa till he gts irritated by me. especially when i talk abt marriage. HAHA.

till then, BYE!

I had closed my eyes to the truth and lived the lies
Can you tell me that your sorry look deep in to my eyes?

You abused my love for you, and took it as a game
Don’t you feel guilty? Are you dying in shame?
You were a someone who were never apart
No, that’s a lie
you had a devilish heart!

You were full of evil and yet I could never see
I protected you, I lied for you and yet this is how u treated me

What kind of person are you that would make a girl like me cry
When you took everything, looked at me, and just walked by

Some say that the bond we shared could never ever fade
But now I feel I have no YOU cause I have been betrayed

so much for your lies,
so much for your promises,
so much for everything.

3 yrs had passed, and u haf changed to someone else.
someone i nvr knw. someone i nvr wish for.

let this be a lesson. no more v*****l love and instead, lets all face the reality. =)

phrase of the day:

sepandai pandai tupai melompat, akhirnya jatuh ke tanah juga.

a phrase with a deep meaning. i knw something that u dun realize. u can carry on with ur games, i play along with u. we'll know the truth one day. the reason y we can nvr be together unless u prove ur existence.

so my school open house haf only 1 more day left. if u think u wanna see my big not so nice school, do come over tomorrow. who knws u can meet jessica alba, aishwarya rai and imelda therine there. they are the hottest chicks in that school. so do check them out. the place was soo packed with ppl and sometimes, we even haf difficulty walking. there was a few awesome perfrmance by the students from various CCAs. everything went as planned i suppose.

till then, im tired from a whole day out with frens. im lazy to promote my sch. if u like it, join. if u dun, then too bad.

im totally lost right now.
unsure of every single things which may lead to disappointment.
the thought of breaking down is always ard me telling me im the strongest person on earth and that no one can fight me. not even the legendary, Badang.
but this is the problem, even the stongest person on earth can be the weakest person when it faced certain problems.

i pray to God all the time so that i knw which one will be the right path for me to walk on.
i suppose i haven't knw it yet, but i will soon. sooner or later where i'll be free from all these and nt thinking that i make the wrg choice. cause i knw God is always there for me and He had all my fate written. only He knws wats best for me. =)

i was browsing thru the old album when i saw those pictures taken when i went on a trip to Australia and Bali/Jakarta which lasts for 2 wks.. omg.. that was eons ago and u can see how kental i was. i bet Kaka won't even want me back then. he wud rather go for the pretty ones. but hey, im cute. HAHA.
i wont be uploading all the pics that i took but only some. so sit back and haf fun laughing at my kental-ness. =))

my brother and i at the airport in HK to wait for our next flight.

just look at how short i was compared to the wonder woman. and yes, my brother seems to be interested with the wonder woman legs. i suppose he must be wondering hw long is her leg. there must be a secret recipe to her long leg.

i love this place so much.. as u can see from the bg, its a dolphin paradise.

This was at Bali. i used to be so timid. i guess that explains y im so daring and brave right now. i hid behind my dad. i remember after that, my dad chase me ard with that snake on his hand.
-.-'

a performance put up by the people there. as usual, my dad is the camera and videoman. see how bulky that videocamera is and compare it to now. well, that was 10 yrs back. hahaha.

before i show u my last picture, i suggest u fasten ur seat belt coz i bet u gonna laugh real hard till u drop pengsan.
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i wonder who will buy that apron. pretty censored. and omg, UNDERAGE!
lastly, thanks to this 2 person that makes us haf an enjoyable trip. its my parents. wooohoo!! they are the most sporting parents and also open minded kind. i thank god i got them. =)

i knw u r really angry towards me and i knw that its my fault.
u have all the rights in the world to hate me.
yes, i need u. doesnt mean i din treat u like hw i used to, we can still keep in contact. we dont haf to thrw it all in the drain.
its hard to let go of the 3 yrs relationship, i knw. everyone knws. but things just dont work out between u n me. we are world apart.
u r there while im here.
its better to end it here than to let it drag knwing it will go nowhere. at the end of the day, we will be the one regretting it. no happy ending.

im nt ready for any commitments in relationship. im fine the way i am. slowly, i'll let go every single bit of u. all i need is time.

im 18 this yr and all i can say is "wake up to face the reality!" =)

nth much. just a vid for u to enjoy.

we didnt break the tradition. we still bought Prima Deli cake for our classmate, Arina. despite news of people getting food poisoning when they ate Prima Deli chocolate cakes, we still bought the chocolate truffle. yummy. the quality is still the same and as delicious as ever. so, we surprised her at Blk L level 4 after our last class. not only celebrating her bday but also Rafi.

Happy 18th birthday to the both of u. =)

i woke up today feeling so happy and let me tell u why..
eheeem.. im so excited to say it out.

i found a new teeth growing! hahaha! no wonder my gum feel so 'bloated'. =P
i bet u must be going like "ceehhh.." but watever it i, it just makes me feel so excited.
i remember the last time any teeth grow in my mouth is when i was 11 yrs old. that was like ages ago when i was still in my pinafore(??), 2 ponytails and high socks. yes, i was very kental back then. -.-'

ok enought of teeth stories before u gt disgusted. eeewww..

today, is officially 2nd day of sch but first day to me. the sch started off so bad when i freakingly forgot abt the quiz. i tried to study but nth goes into my tiny brain. i read, read, read and it just make my head spin like a gasing. so i actually gave up. the lecturer then told us that the quiz is postpone to friday. pheww.. wat a big relief. we only left sch ard 7.30pm. like wat dad always told me, "its better if u just bring ur pillows to school so u don't haf to go home since u always come back late from shool." i think i shud do that one day. the toilet is nt bad afterall.. quite clean.

i got my flash assignment to complete. 2 words, MATI KIPOK! =)