thanks to naqiah, i gt affected.
my head is spinning like a "gasing".
my body is weak and soft like a "belot".
my throat hurts.

i've been missing my bestfriends lately.
sometimes u just need to talk abt lots of things with them.
school work, updates on life, latest news and etc.
naqiah knw lots abt me and she knw everything that is going on.
jannah and rose wasn't there to knw everything abt me.
we r not in secondary school anymore in which we go back together, eat together and go school.
oh.. how i miss those times i spent with u every min.
altho we rarely meet or talk, we still keep in touch.
rose, u knw that u r the one that i always turn to.

my goodfriends.
suraj, i knw u've been wanting to meet me but we both are always bzy with schwork. ur webcam is still with me. let's go out someday and enjoy ourselves. u knw that u r the best buddy ard.
ibro, how freakingly rude can u be yday nite. im totally disappointed with u.
emman, he's gone to Mars and nvr coming back. gone with the wind. whooosshh!

but afterall, im glad i still have feran with me, my source of happiness.

im inspired to cut my hair short whenever i see how daring these girls can be.
i've asked certain people opinions and majority din agree.
i remember my aunt said "girls with long hair no matter how not ugly they are, they will still look pretty because ke'ayu'an lebih menyerlah."
i don't really agree with her altho i knw she knws how to judge. not in a bad manner but a good manner.
if i were to ask my mum, she will surely blow up. she really hates her daughters to haf short hair. she herself has long hair.
and she will start nagging non stop and bring the matter forward at her workplace. i din knw abt that until one of mum's friend talk abt it.
to think back, it's rather funny.
tat's mum for u..

oh well, im glad that there's no more lesson for most of the modules by the end of this week and study break is coming. i thought of working during the study break.
anyways we will only be sitting for 2 exam papers.
now, i really need much help for computing maths.
suraj? ibro? be able to help? tell me..
=)

the 21st birthday of my cousin (the boy in the pic) which is held at the Ruggart camp was awesome.
altho there's no birthday cake or whatsoever, the game held by aunt was totally fun.
my family reached there ard 8 and we had our dinner first while waiting for the others. the games started at ard 9pm. the first game was to play five stones and each family need to only send 1 representative. my mum played and she got 2 pts. u need to play with ur non dominant hand. i think its tough. there will be a scoreboard for each family and our name is a five star hotel in which my family is called Four Season. there's shangri-la, scotts, intercontinental, hyatt and etc.the team with the highest pts after 10 games will win a grand prize. lol. the second game is the unlock game. my bro participate in it and lydia's father won. hahaa. he's a locksmith they say.. but among all the 10 games, the most funniest games was the ball-ling and penalty shoot out in which only mothers can take part. in ball-ling, the pins were those mineral water bottles that is filled with water. it's seriously hard to hit the pin and u need to kick the ball instead of throwing. we laughed hysterically when one of my cousin kicked the ball. he look so manly and said "tk pasal lah.." but the way he kicked the ball was sooo "lembut". because of these 2 games, they emphasized on the word "balls". my uncle kept saying "pls take care of ur balls. if not, it can't be use forever." if u gt wat he means, good. if u dont gt it, dont bother to think abt it. lol.

overall, we won the grand prize and also the family lucky draw thanks to mum's high IQ. and in the lucky draw for all the nephews, i gt 2nd and sis gt 3rd. we din receive any prizes but cash. hahah. now, i can save up money. =P

Just Wondering

y shud i sacrifice my bzy time to go online everyday when u don't even bother to do the same?
y did i even bother to go online in KL when i can actually spend my time sight seeing or enjoy my holidays with my cousins?
y can't u do the same?
im sry for not being understanding towards u.
in fact, im not even the understanding kind of person.
i dont unds anyone's feelings.
i dont even unds my own feelings.
hw dumb can i be.

afterall, im just wondering.

a BIG thank you to Jannah and Rose for the BIG help.

u girls gotta sacrifice your time, your beauty sleep and many other sacrifices.

ain't i just so lucky to have great bestfriends like u 2?

although everything was kinda last min and the thing is lost, i still appreciate your big help.

the presentations turn out to be sucky.

im totally pissed with it actually.

however, the PD presentation turns out to be ok and actually its not wat i expected.

its my first time presenting alone and talking rot to my classmates.

i drag drag and drag. hahah.

with the end of wk 15, 3/4 of the load are gone.

august coming soon and exam too.

but luckily, we haf only 2 papers.

and after that, i can enjoy the 1 1/2 mth of holidays.

great eh.. i can't wait! =P

super canggih maid.
yday in the mrt, there's a maid literally staring at fatin. he brought along with him a chinese little boy. she acted as if the train was hers and she took out her hp to listen to Don't Matter by Akon. i told fatin, im gonna hate this song very much. i gt irritated easily when ppl on their songs in the mrt. its like cmon lah.. use the earpiece. she not only owned 1 but 2 hps! fatin was like to blh jadi ni. hp dier lebih canggih dari aku.
the next thing they notice is her jeans. she wore a giordano jeans and the thing that really make them shocked was the shirt that she wore. she wore a MNG basics shirt.. now, tell me. u dont find any maids in S'pore wearing all that, don't u? they seem to be living luxurious life here compared to their hometown. but pls, can somebody just slap her irritating and 'cari psl' face?

fatin has a great power. when she swing her hand, her bracelet can fly up to 10m high and 5m away. cool huh..

our plan was just to accompany Naqiah to collect her laptop at Funan and then went straight to school. we passed out Admin card to Kai Xiang and told him to tap for us coz we r going to be late for the maths class. together with atie, we cabot sch. we took the train towards JE and all of us are like hungry ghost i tell u. we can't wait to reach city hall and its about 10 stops away. hell sak.. so we decided to drop at Dover as we miss S'pore Poly chicken rice. they served a very nice one. we act cool and pretended to be a SP student. we pretended to know where the place is and do not want to ask for direction. we din gt lost. dont worry. hahah. when i sat down, i almost fell off from the chair. hahah. i check left and right. ok.. no one was looking. phew~

suddenly, jeng jeng... we met Zul and i was like "shit shit!"

the conversation goes like this.

Zul: krg tgh ader break ker cabot class?

Naqiah:err.. break break.. kau aper course?

Zul:ECC. kau?

Naqiah:alah malu lah nk blg..

Zul:tu pun nak malu.

Naqiah:alah.. kitorg dari NYP lah.. atie dari RP.

Zul:oi! jauhnyerr dtg just nak mkn.

i was already trying to hide my face and wanted to tell the ppl. no no. im not from NYP. hahaha. actually, the whole situation was funny. act bdk SP tk menjadi..

in the end, i went home. naqiah and fatin went for drama while atie went back to her sch to return the camera.

i just feel like skipping sch everyday and spend time with my frens. wouldn't it be nice? =P

he left me too soon.
i gt nth more to say.
speechless.
i dun believe in "syirah comes first before anything else."
crap eh.. im over it.
the problem with virtual.

='(

sry but i knw im not understanding at all.

children nowadays are intelligent and high tech aren't they?
during the bday party last night, my 6 yrs old cousin received an iPod video from the parents. everyone was shocked coz we didnt knw if my cousin knws how to use it. but surprisingly, she knws everything abt it. hahah. dah maju eh.. when i was 6 yrs old, i dont even knw anth abt this kind of gadgets. last time, we don't have mp3 or mp4. instead, we use walkman or is it discman? i got a gold VCD discman when i was 9 yrs old as my bday present. but too bad, the discman was lost. my first mp3 that i gt was when im 13 yrs and i only started to use iPod when im 14. so u see.. how lucky this kids are. in future, i guess they will use a laptop before they turn 7. possible eh..

last night, my aunt hired a magician to entertain us. so we sat down under the canopy to watch his magic tricks in which how he changed the $10 note to $100 dollar note and how a bird exist from nowhere. before the show end, all of us received a balloon. jgn ckp yg kecik, yg tua semuer berebut. u knw those kind of balloon where u make it into shape. i gt a dangling flower which is real nice. hahaha. mcm bdk2 sak..
we stayed by the beach till 1am talking and i tease my aunt alot coz she's getting fatter. hahaha.

and i think apple must be angry with me for going online later. sry.. tk sengajer.

my heart to you..

i met two of my friends parent today. maybe its parent's day.
first, i met rose's dad near my house. then, i met naqiah's mum.
sooner or later, i will meet fatin or jannah parents. hahaha.

my mum and i went to mini toons today to buy presents for the little cousins.
it's their bday tomorrow and yes, their parents bought something for me from Frankfurt, Germany. it's my overdue birthday presents and i will gt it tomorrow. yoohoo! =P
i heard that there will be a magician. so i guess, its gonna be fun.

today, fatin literally smelled naqiah's butt. hahaha. AGAIN.. due to the menses blood that we smell in the lab and i donnoe y but today fatin likes to molest ppl butt. first, she touched naqiah's butt and naqiah gave a funny reaction. while i was walking, she touched mine. i jumped coz i was so shocked. i shouted "i gt molested!" hahaha. giler sak kwn aku yg satu ni. dah gian eh? lol. =P

for now, i miss apple so muchh.. he went offline early today.. =(

i woke up this morning with a smile on my face. i just feel so happy.
dont ask me why. maybe i had a nice dream last night. but somehow, i couldn't remember it.

oh well, dreams are meant for sleeping. but since im awake, let's snap back to reality.


yesterday, while lepak-in at MacD with Rose, a guy came approached us.
he said, "do u mind if i join the two of u?"
i replied, "sry but there's two more friends joining us."
he said, "it's ok. i just need someone to talk to."

seriously, he look the "cracko" type. the sot sot one u knw.

i wonder if he just came out from IMH. he totally freaked us out.

and oh btw, u knw how i feel towards u.. <3

haizz.. boringnyerr post aku..

to apple,

If this is a dream,
May I never be woken,
Let me treasure each moment,
Every word that is spoken.

If this is a dream,
May it replace all others,
Leave me sleep all my days,
With we two as lovers.

If this is a dream,
Then send reality away,
Let this night last eternal,
And banish forever the day.

If this is a dream,
Life surely is wondrous,
What could be more perfect,
Than a dream of the two of us.

im sorry about yesterday.
u knw i luv u and i wont do that to u.
i didnt mean to offline w/o saying gudbye.
it was all meant to be a joke but i didnt know tat it will turn out this way.
i promise i wont do it again.

im still here, waiting for u.. <3

Im sry if I missed it. It wasn't intentional. I got to wait 1 hr for the prince's to arrive. We rushed there as fast as we can asking people for direction. Al maklumlah, bkn org Bedok. Fatin went ahead with them while our initial plan to go home was cancelled as naqiah craved for the nasi ayam penyet. we gt lost at bedok. Naqiah mistook bedok corner for simpang bedok. Aper lagi.. kitorg semuer lost and when we hail a cab, the driver was like "huh? Bedok corner is just there." Not knowing where to find it, we asked for direction. We only found the place after an hr. TP mall was packed as usual and while walking, Haikal called me up and wanted to meet at City Hall. I agreed. So, ibro, naq and wani followed. We watched the fireworks at Marina big staircase and everything was just like infront of us. It turns out to be beautiful and suddenly we heard the national anthem. Hahaha. It's the NDP preview anyways. After having such a nice moments together, its time to go home. =D

there's just too many things that happened yday. some was hilarious & some was shocking. like wat my dear friend had wrote in her blog. the apek's and nyonya's totally pissed me off yday. i dun mind if they wanna die at the track there but pls dont do it in front of me. i will get traumatised. u see.. this are the typical S'poreans. very kiasu. (ok.. including me!) but nt to the extend of putting my life in danger. if anyone at the back slightly push us and we accidentally hit them, they might just end up at the track. i dun care if they stare at me after wat i've just said. they shud knw their mistakes.

we thought tat we met Kaz & the gf. aten was obviously so shocked. she hate the sight of him. but to me, i think he's better looking than Kaz coz he's fairer. i remember her story telling abt Kaz when they went on a date. rather funny experience eh.. hahaha. one funny thing is when i actually thought naqiah was a bapok from the back when she let her hair go.

one more thing, can somebody shoot Mark? the worst lecturer ever. fcuk.. tat was random. ergghh..

im getting more and more irritated with him. y din he just gt the msg? y is he so dumb? u knw tat it wont happen.
pls stop bothering me. it will be much appreciated.

let's see.. for the past 2 days,i've been real bzy with my projects and stuffs. presentation will be in 2 wks time and damn it, im only half way thru. nt only tat, i hate being formal. ergghh. for inno, we havent even started on our product. can somebody just slap us and tell us to wake up? for my PD, i need to bake chocolate chip oreo cheesecake which im so lazy to do it. Networking, almost done but i havent did the final checking. PCMP, erggh! i wanna bomb this module. the test yday was so damn difficult and i hate ARRAY! so i guess i will be real bzy for 2 wks and not tat free to after wk 15 coz there will be test and exams.

SEPTEMBER, CAN U PLS ARRIVE FAST? I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE 1 MONTH HOLIDAY.

hey hey you you!

i hate that phrase for the moment. i used to like it but thanks to the nyonya in the MRT, i find it very irritating. VERY. nyonya nowadays dah vogue & maju. she board at Woodlands. at first, we thought tat it was someone ringtone or msg tone. but the song just go on and on as if that's the only song available at her hp. and guess wat, the nyonya was listening to the song and im sure she wants everyone in the MRT to knw that she's avril lavigne fan. -.-
everyone looked at her and she din even bother. THICK SKIN eh.. hahaha.
the worst part of all, she was standing right in fron of us. after much stares, she took out her earpiece and use it. omg.. how dumb can she be. i wonder if she just left her brain at pasar malam yday. errggghh.. this kind of people just want to seek attention and maybe they shud be bomb. they are just disturbing our peaceful mind. rather than listening to that song over and over again, i took out my ipod. aku rasa lebih mulia aku dgr ipod.
i suggest that this kind of ppl shud be chase out of the MRT. *eveil laugh*

till then, peace yaw..

SHOPPING DISASTER!

Town was in a mess. Typical Singaporeans. While waiting for the 3 ladies, I went shopping alone. Nasib baik aku takder matair. Kalau tak, aku heret dier sana sini temankan aku shopping sampai give up. Hahahaha! Like wat a friend of mine had said, although the GST is officially 7%, shopping is still a must. No excuses. And guess what? She regretted not getting the cardigan at Zara. Hahaha. There's always other times. I shopped at Zara and Mango. Not only me but my mother too. Naqiah was controlling her nafsu not to get anything. Rose, waiting for the boyfie treat (tk guna btol! Hahaha!). I need to revamp my wardrobe now after much shopping and not forgetting the tons of clothes the father bought for me. Everything will be on till end of the month, so any shopping kakis?

u look like a bitch!

HAHAHA! tats wat mum called me yesterday when i was wearing black pants, black shirt with painted nails on. i freaked out. wat?!! but of course she was joking and didnt mean it. its just the way how i look. now, i dun think i haf a good girl look (i am actually a good girl anyways).

my friends planned to go to club dangdut. hahaha. they want to knw hw the atmosphere is inside and one silly thing happen just nw. we tried to gelek in the washroom and something funny happened. its abt me. i better not say it out coz i was really embarassed. i was asked to join them coz i gt big butt. ergghh.. hahaha. if u notice, most of the dangdut lovers will gelek 360 degrees. tk tercabut ker pinggang? aku tgk, aku yg takot. so, anyone wants to join them for dangdut tonite? lol. =P

i donnoe wat the hell is wrong with my classmates today.
as if we are like some kinda disease or smth.
don like to be with us, tell straight to the face and nt show that attitude.
i guess we have been friendly enuf and u dun hafta be rude.
tats totally uncalled for.
cmon lah.. we are nt rude towards u and u shud knw tat even if we do, all of us joke abt it.
maybe, we are partly at fault too. -.-

on a happy note, dad bought both my mum and i a Paul Smith bag. i simply like it and i guess i gt a bag to wear now when going out instead of my adidas handbag. hahah. so pathetic. =P

p/s. i still luv my Feran.. <3

There's no more hopes and I knw it. I've always have high hopes but I guess its dash now. i knw its impossible between us and I have to accept it no matter how hard it is. We can never be together and everyone around us knows it. Im not saying that I give up but this is all fated. No matter hw close our hearts is, we can never still be together. Y must it turn out this way. Y must we be so unlucky.

Sometimes I feel so empty, so desperate
And my soul hurt so much.
Where you go, when you don't have a heart?
Where to go, when you are losing hope? and I just wish I could find my way to your arms
But I'm losing strength and losing my own life.
Sometimes this endless darkness makes me feel if I were blind.
And there when I ask myself where can I go when I feel myself broken?
This is hunting my soul even in my dreams.
Telling me that I'm lost
Telling me that my own soul is drying
The pain is eating all my hopes.
So where do I go like this?
Where do I go from here?
So lost, so empty, so desperate,
so weak and so broken.
Where do I go now with this heart so damage?
If I could erase everything
Everything that I been through
If I could just forget about it and move on
But this pain is hunting me; this pain is killing me.
I wish I could erase everything but sadly I can't
I've nvr been so in love and now I'll try to ignore
The fact that I'll be out of love and out of heart

i dun wanna be disappointed.
i dun wanna be hurt.
i dun wanna be broken.

i accept it and i knw it's impossible.
because at the end of the day, we will be leading our two different lives n not together.
i find it hard to accept the truth.
but its fate and i guess nth can change it.

no matter wat, i still <3 u.

the chalet was awesome altho I was sweating like a mad dog. I wonder y the weather now is sooo humid. Ok. Global warming I suppose. The games, picture takings and everything is just so wonderful. We compromise to wear white but there's a pembelot. She wore green. Hahaha. She's none other than our beautiful Ms Lydia. She said that she can't find any white outfit. Instead, she wore a white tudung. Lol.

she's going to lead a new life soon with the special one. all the best. =)

Fantastic Four
beautiful cousins.

i'll end it with gbr paling tk senonoh aku. hahah.