ENID BLYTON!

Remember her? She's a writer who wrote our storybooks when we were young and nt forgetting, even our parents read her books when they were young. A very famous writer from Britain. She wrote books like Nancy Drew and Hardy Boys. Don't tell me u dunnoe her. I love reading her books back then in Singapore. My cousin claimed that she saw her at Jurong. But Feran told me she’s dead.. errr.. tell me im not hearing things. =S

On a happy and non scary note, I went out with the fam and its actually my cousin's birthday. We bought a cake from secret recipe (it's always a habit to buy cake from secret recipe for any birthdays). We celebrated it at Labrador where we had so much fun playing children games and not forgetting blackjack. My family always has an activity on Sat.hehehe. im thankful for having a very great family. It will be family gathering later at CDANS organize by Lydia's family. Woohoo. I can't wait.. =D

i dont like friday. altho it marks the start of the long waiting wkends, i still dun like it coz i will be spending the whole day in sch. from 9 to 6 (i knw sec sch is worst!). yesterday morning class was cancelled and i spent my time in the library watching The Prince & Me. i borrowed it and it seems that there's smth wrg with my admin card. i asked the librarian asst and she said that there's no such student by the name of nur insyirah. hw stupid can she be.. if there's no such person, hw they lecturers take note of my attendance then. i just feel like shooting her. she also show that 'watever' face. bleargghh.. -.-

Emman, dont be too stress up lah. later got white hair then tk hensem. i think u shud just tell her. who knws she likes u too. jgn pendam perasaan lama2 nanti jadi belo. hehehe. jangan tunggu lama2, nanti lama2 dier diambil org. =P

She cried and I was there to notice how heartbroken she was. We sat down and she talked to Man to gt some advices. It really does make sense and he’s a good adviser. They were talking on the phone when there’s actually an incoming msg. she ignored it thinking that it was Shahrikin. Only after they are done, she checked her inbox and suddenly she was shouting at my ears and hug me by the main road. Everyone turn to look at us. Expected. A special msg from a special someone. So I was right I guess. She shouldn’t jump to conclusion and now, everything turns out well. No more tears, no more drama. Just the reality and a sweet fact in which I hope will last. Like wat I said to her, not everyone is as lucky as her. She should be smiling in her sleep today. =))

don't give up too easily.
u need to knw the reason before u jump to conclusion.
i knw its hard, bitter for u but take it easy. giving up is nt the best solution until u heard it from his own mouth. he might haf his own reasons that u didnt knw. be patient and wait. im sure he did mean to avoid u or smth when everything was perfectly fine yday.

one possible outcome is that maybe he's too tired and only woke up when shahrikin send him the msg due to the vibration or the tone. when u msged him, maybe he's slping like a log coz u msged him in the afternoon and he's too tired to reply.
or maybe, he has forgotten all abt it as he maybe in a rush to go to work and so, he din reply. he might be bzy or smth. try to think positively until u knw the truth.
no matter how bitter the truth is, try to accept it.
shahrikin and i will always be behind u.
dont forget u still haf frens like us.. =)

just knw this.. if he's meant to be urs, he will come back to u and he will be yours to keep. ini semua takdir yg menentukan.

just one thing to say..
one thing..

i miss Apple! ='((

my 2 gfs haf been posting abt love. their love stories.
it seems rather interesting but too bad, i dun haf any stories abt my love.
let's just say tat its just virtual and nth much to elaborate.

first and foremost, i gotta thank Ameer for his help in codings. gosh.. its nvr easy unless u practice. he helps quite a lot. well, thanks alot. =)

Gentarasa was fine. the title was titisan cacamerba. a story abt S'pore history of Sang Nila Utama n Sir Stamford Raffles. i saw An and dier sudah tentu menyerlah. hahahhaa! u knw i knw, girls. oh yes, i saw **a*n.
i remember him asking me his qn 7 yrs ago.

him: "u like me right?"
me: *blank* wat?? u gt the wrong person. tk tau malu sak."
him: *blush* "alamak! malu sey..

i can't help but to laugh when i saw him. i dun think he dare to look at me either.
moral of the story is dont jump to conclusion coz u will embarrass urself. heheheeh.

i was reading fatin's post and i could do nth but laugh my ass out!
hahahaha!!
fancy her promoting Mek's. oh well, Mek is a nice girl after all.
she's been doing quite a lot for Mek. How sweet. she even gave out application form to those who wanted Mek. if i were a guy, maybe i wud fill it in.

im going for gentarasa tomorrow with atie. i donnoe wat its abt but i hope it will be smth great.
the projects are staring at me now. im getting all nervous. i just dont wanna study and i miss my humanities subs. let's turn time to 2006 where all of us were bzy mugging for the O's. its interesting to study those subs than abt IT. i think i betta nt gt too stressed up as i dont wanna haf white hair. no no.. im still young. can sum1 help me in coding? =(

She makes me believe in love at first sight. I've never believe in it ever since I knw abt this word called 'love'. I've always thought it will take sometime to love and knw tat person. But I guess I was wrg. Love at first sight does exist after all. She showed me how strong she was enduring the pain for the past 2 mths and not giving up hope saying "im sure he will like me one day." Oh well, he did. Isn't tat one hella good news? With frens ard her giving her hope except for a few who suggested tat she might as well gives up so as not to waste her time, she live in confusion.
If u were to ask me how it feel, frankly speaking, I've nvr went thru it be4 and I hope it will nvr happen. Im sure the feeling is just indescribable. This is what I call miracles. Miracles do happen actually when u actually believes in it and she should thank her lady luck. Not everyone is as lucky as her. I don't consider myself lucky anyway. Lol. i can see all her smiles now and im all smiles too. Hehehe. how wonderful to knw tat we can influene each other. =P

So kids, fall in love when u think u've found the right one. Hahaha!

bila bunyi bersatu, kau millikku.

i haf fatin and naqiah for company today. so tat i wont be bored as usual. we were watching APM together and was disgusted with Gita Gutawa voice. its like soooo irritating. she's just spoiling the whole song especially when its Siti's song. i still find Siti the best altho she may be fat or wat but she still has the best vocal. my idol. =)

she's my latest obsession. sound so wrg eh.. pretty, decent, soft spoken and etc. no other celebs are like her. celebrities nowadays preferred to show off their skin and wear indecent clothes. just look at APM. there's lots of female artistes tat wore revealing dresses. if i were a guy, i will woo her altho she's married. hahaha!

oh pls, im not a lesbian. im still straight. Apple still rock my heart.

in life, we always have a choice.
the choice shud be made w/o us regretting it.
so decide now be4 its too late.
you're very right naqiah. so make the right choice coz in the end, i just hope u will be happy. =D

i swear i dont wanna walk alone ever again at Bukit Bintang.

there's a drunkard who pulls my clothes and said "you're beautiful. where u come from?"

and when i was looking for things he was like saying "what did u want? i'll buy for u.." maybe this kind of drunkard need to be bomb uh.. he's scaring the hell outta me. another one was waiting for me outside the cyber cafe. i was in the cafe when i saw sum1 waving to me and waited 4 me outside. i was sooo scared that i actually called my dad. he went to pick me up and warned me not to go out alone. i spent most of my time eating. food satisfy me especially when the food there is cheap compare to s'pore. like auntie anne's, famous amos, delifrance, fast food restaurants and etc. to think back, i think i spent quite alot of money on food and i actually shop nth. hahaha! m'sia boutiques such as levi's, esprit and mango are all expensive and mom suggested tat i just shop at s'pore. anyways, its the SINGAPORE GREAT SALE! lol. overall, i enjoy the trip altho all i wanted was to comeback to Singapore a.s.a.p. as i miss my apple badly & home sweet home. nth can beat ur homeland and how systematic ur country is. needless to say, im proud to be a Singaporean. hahaha. oh yah, the uncle going to Germany and im going to get my birkenstock soon. this will add up to my fave shoe collection. hehehe.

p/s. HAPPY 4TH BIRTHDAY LITTLE SISTER, NURY ALYSYA.

due to a bad mood yday upon reaching home, i 4gt to thank those who wishes me via email, sms, msn, friendster or in any sort of communications.

a million thank you.

oh yah be4 i 4gt.. the galah man wants me to blog tat he's the first person to wish me at 12am. i love u lah brudder.. hahaha. wa caya sama lu. =P

till then, be good kids..

i started with a bad day and that really hurts me. y can't they just make me happy for once and especially when it's my bday today.. i think i've been a cry baby these few days and tat sux.

i was disappointed with 2 of my frens and they know who they are. call urself my bestfriend if u dare. watever it is, my lovely 4 gud boy-friends was funny as always and my bestfriends too.
fantastic 4 was awesome. catch it. till then, i gt nth more to elaborate. im just so fed up.

im frustrated now. the post is gone. erggghhh..
ok watever.
firstly, i wanna apologise if my previous post causes any misunderstanding.
i really didnt mean to hurt anyone. but only tat bastard.

so the meet up with Rose was awesome coz its been quite sum time since i last met her.
we went to taka to pay hp bills and there, we met saiful who is bzy working. she told him abt tomorrow plans and all in which after that,we decided to go to Coach. i din knw she was also interested with this brand. hahah. bestfriends, think alike. lol. after walking ard, i cudnt find the handbag i wanted to buy and the new designs are like so err.. no comment. hahaha!
at the streets, we saw this 2 human figure with a lcd screen head. they look so funny and they look at us until we entered the mango shop. i heard it saying "WONDERFUL!" lol. walked ard and i was so attracted to this mng pants. rose promised to gt it for me as a bday gift. i was like "oh thank you!" hahah. err.. i guess it will be a habit to gt me mango stuffs every yr during my bday. hahaha. like last yr, she gt me that long sleeve pink mng shirt.

we then went to collect my hp and oh god, it look and feel so brand new. i miss it so much. im here for u now, nokia. we decided to settle down at McCafe and there, we talked abt so many stuffs. from probs to interesting stories to hot news. haha. if i was not told to go back at 8.30, i wud haf stay there with her till like 11. too many things to share. be4 we went home, i wanted to look for any dorothy perkins shop coz i wanted to gt tat top i saw. but its nowhere in sight. and the levi's jeans was tempting me to gt it. hell no, im not gonna gt it coz dad promised to buy tat for me. LOL!!

in the bus, we continued our nvr ending stories.
i hope i've been a great help to her abt *****.
as a bestfriend, i just want her to be happy with watever choices she made. if u think he deserves it, then go ahead.. =))

and now, im going to chat with that galah man. hahaha!

i dun think im gonna post a decent update here.

let's see.. who goes after who now.
who needs who now.
who waits for who.
who will shit at ur face now..

im really frustrated with this fren of mine whom i suppose is such a bastard anyway.
he used to be close to me and he left me just like tat for no reason to be with his friends and now he's coming back for me..
huh! u can go to hell now!
im not even bothered by u now.
they leave u? so be it.. y r u running back to me like some idiotic dog running after a robber.
where did u place me in the first place?
at ur ass? fcuk u!
im not cursing u btw. i just think u deserve it.

so yea, don't ever think u can befriend with that someone after dumping her. u think im a girl with no feelings? u r so wrg mister.. im not an animal like u..

im sry if i've nt been picking up those calls and replying those msges.
the problem is my hp is now at the Nokia's servicing centre.
as u all knw, my hp is so lag. so i decided to heed Khai's advice to send it for servicing.
hence, i will be w/o it for like 3 days.
speaking of which, i decided to gt a new one.
ergghh.. but im always so stingy when it comes to this kind of thing.
i just thought of using that money to just shop at KL.
u see.. altho im not really looking forward for the trip to KL, i can sense that it will be smth great this time coz dad won't be driving our car but instead, my whole fam will be inside one van.
so u can imagine how kecoh it will be.

oh yah, i went to a wedding this afternoon and oh, the food is superbly delicious.
there's chocolate fondue (i still think haagen dasz is the best), brownie (it tastes like famous amos brownie) and other delicious foods.
its one beautiful wedding i've ever went to.
but still, its not as beautiful coz its nt my fave theme, black n red.
lol.

well, nth more to update. i'll think of one decent update soon. =)

i only got one thing to say.
i've been thinking about quite a few things.
and im just so unsure

as for now, don't ask me why i miss u like crazy.

my 2 lovely ladies went for their holiday and u can imagine how boring it is for me during the weekend.
but its ok, my turn coming soon.

the last lesson, MFP, was cancelled and i was soooo happy.
i can't bear to stay at sch till 6pm.
ergghh.. its so tiring.
i was rather disappointed with my PCMP quiz result but at least i was better than Ilyasa. *evil laugh*.
haikal as always make us laugh with his silly jokes and when he sat next to me, i just can't concentrate coz i will laugh most of the time. hahaha.
now, im glad that the holiday has arrive..
i need one good rest and hell yea, lots of projects and that means, more presentation.
its really stressful when it comes to doing all these projects altho poly life is quite slack.
lol.

im still waiting for feran now. =D

those heels are obviously killing me with the pain. i wanted to change back to my sandals but it look so awkward. so, i decided not to change it when i went to PS after school. walk ard and i think im limping most of the time.. ergghh..
the presentation was ok altho i was sooooo bloodily nervous.
i stuttered. erk..
and yea, i hope we will do quite ok for our product.
after everything done, we took pics like crazy..
fatin n naqiah was like pretending to find over that long bean, ilyasa. hahha!

the ladies in my class. looking very elegant. fatin and i the only one wearing dress.

the 2 trio grps. haha. no no no. nt couples.
this picture make me laugh! hahhaa

the last min project and preparation turn out to be a success as our egg did not break.. khai was doing the last min parachute in the class and during the presentation, only khai and i talk. ok. i didnt stutter. arina and wani answered all the qns that ms baker asked. at first, we weren't confident that it gonna work. however, it did. actually, khai play cheat. he covered the egg with tissue paper to prevent it from falling out of the box (the egg must actually be seen) and when it dropped, arina place the egg on top. hahah. and oh yah, i almost gt hit by nabillah's grp flying saucer. the thing was so huge and when they throw it down it only hit me. i was so shocked that i can't avoid it. all i can do is shout. hahah. everyone was laughing at me. ok. i dun shout as loud as naqiah. lol. overall, PD lesson was great.

on my way hum in the MRT, there were 2 kids who sat beside me. both of them are cute and good looking. 1 boy 1 girl. i think the boy age is ard 5 to 6 while the girl maybe 3 or 4. he's a big size kid wearing pampers and suddenly he asked his mum "nak susu.." and he drinks milk from the bottle. i was giggling to myself coz he's already so big. the opposite makciks was laughing at him and he showed an angry face. hahah. his reaction is soo cute.. they alight at woodlands

and the girl waved at me. i waved back. and when they alight, the mrt madman board. if u frequently take the mrt, u will knw who is he.

i went to lot 1 to gt money bag at old chang kee be4 going home. i tot of calling suraj up to meet him. its been mths since i last met him. but i guess, i was too tired. i still need to finish up my report and presentation is tomorrow! errgghh..

imagine a situation where the surrounding are all quiet and only the cengkerik sound can be heard. and i was feeling so scared when that emman talk abt pochong, his bestfriend. then suddenly my mum shouted "SYIRAH! TAK TAU NAK TDO EH!?"
for once, i thought im going to die of heart attack. kimeeekk.. i jump out of my chair sia..
i immediately had to end my nice conversation with feran.
she slammed my laptop and keep it in her room. she locked the door.
i knocked on her door telling that my pillows are all in her room.
it took sometime for her to open the door. instead, it was my dad who open the door. -.-'
he din say anth. i only go to slp ard 3.30am coz i feel sooo guilty leaving the conversation while feran went to look for food. errr... sry..

i only got my lappy this morning be4 my mum go to work.
thank god, its safe and fine.

it was expected.

goodfriends walk in and walk out of ur life fast and easily.
when they say they need u, they are lying.
nvr be too trusting as u will be the one at the end of the thread.
reasons for the loss of goodfriends can be wide.
y i specify on the terms goodfriends?
not only i experienced it but also a friend of mine.
she cried her heart out when her only goodfriend started not to prioritise her.
she feels as if her goodfriend does not need her anymore bcoz her goodfriend has found a better friend and also gt wat her goodfriend wanted all along. in terms of anything.
she gt no one to turn to.
so wat did i told her?

u dun deserve such a friend. watever ur friend has been telling u such as he/she needed u was a big lie. he/she might just want u as a spare tyre. i've experience sucha thing when ppl said tat to me but when actual fact, they prioritised their special one. they are just using u. trust me.. u deserve a better one.

she was crying n crying. i somehow consoled her and told her if u still luv ur goodfriend, give he/she a chance. but if i were her, i will say "fcuk off!".

as to not reveal the person identity, i din use any names.

when im angry or sad, stay with me and nvr to leave me just like tat. try to understand me like how i used to understand u. u shud knw tat its the time when i need u the most.don't give up on me coz i've nvr give up on u.
if u knw me well enuf, u knw tat it will end sooner or later.

when im happy and joking ard with u, join me and nvr to let me down. i just wanna share my happy moments with u and do not want u to miss any part of it. we can nvr be selfish in life coz we'll ended up losing everything that we had.

when i hate u, tell me that im wrong and prove to me that u are not like wat i thought. show me that i dun deserve to hate u after all that u've done for me and its the biggest mistake to hate u.

however this kind of feelings can't be seen and not everything can be expressed in words. all of us knw that. learning communication skill has taught me lots of things and it is useful in our daily life to understand others.

overall, it takes time to understand everything.
miracles doesn't happens all the time & humans are nt perfect. just like u and me.

tell me wat am i suppose to do with this unrealistic dream of ours..
i dun wanna waste any more time altho i've nvr regret living in it once.

the first lesson FNET was freaking boring.
i donnoe wat the hell the lecturer was talking abt.
i was at the back of the class getting ready to slp.
with a nice aircon, i find that its perfect to slp.
not until he called up my name and told me to ans his qn. =S
errr.. i was looking ard asking frens for ans.
ilyasa with his facial expression saying "aku tak tau!"
hahaha. lawak lah kau giler.

since PCMP class was cancelled, we haf 4 hrs of break and we went to AMK hub.
being the one who hasn't be there be4, i was so jakun lah.
we had lunch at banquet and holy shimoli, im not hungry.
i forced myself to eat the fish burger if not, i will collapse on my way back to school with my empty stomach.
we then went to AMK hub again and took lots of photos.
im surprised to see Haikal's new hairstyle and i can't stop touching his hair which feels like a carpet.
he nvr fails to make the whole class laugh with his stupid lame jokes and actions. =D

my bfs, my gfs, my sisters, my classmates. <3 he's been a very good classmate and friend. he's always there to help and can be lame too. lol.

our beloved gadget. no way will we go out w/o it. life will be hell then. i guess u can spot mine and naqiah's. its very obvious isnt it?

reasons behind the song..

I'm over your lies,
and I'm over your games.
I'm over you asking me,
when you know I'm not okay.
You call me at night,
and I pick up the phone.
And though you've been telling me,
I know you're not alone.
oh..

That's why
(your eyes)
I'm over it
(your smile)
I'm over it
(realize)
I'm over it
I'm over it
I'm over..

Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..

I'm over your hands,
and I'm over your mouth.
Trying to drag me down,
and fill me with self-doubt.
oh..

That's why,
(your words)
I'm over it
(so sure)
I'm over it
(I'm not your girl)
I'm over it
I'm over it
I'm over...

Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..

Don't call,
don't come by,
ain't no use,
don't ask me why,
you'll never change,
there'll be no more crying in the rain.

Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..

I'm so over it....
I'm over it....

Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it.


figure it out yourself. =D