so lets start off with yesterday outing to the stadium.

but be4 dat, to my dear suraj, i was hoping tat u cud go with me.

there was like a lot of tix left.

aiyoh.. but nvm, i understand.

i hope to go out with u someday.

and so, the stadium was packed at ard 7.30pm and as usual, the atmosphere there was great.

surprisingly, we had 10 tix left.

it will be a waste to throw it away and yah, we decided to sell it to ppl who didnt haf the tix.

we enter the stadium with full of hopes and pride.

finding a seat was obviously hard due to human jam in the stadium.

we had no choice but to hold on to each other real tight.

i was with naqiah, her lil brother, lydia, afiqah, aisyah and the only one guy, midzi.

my family was donnoe where.

but we managed to meet them.

at my seating area, there was this couple who are so inconsiderate.

bcoz of tat, midzi had to sit far away from us.

however, the match shows tat Singapore is faaarrr much more better than Thailand.

its shows Thailand weaknesses.

now, i don agree tat Thailand is the best team in SEA.

especially with their "sore loser" attitude.

cmon lah.. even in the world cup, the referee decision is final and when penalty is given, there's no point arguing.

i gotta admit that the referee was "KAYU".

i even curse him and keep on shouting.

omg! i was shouting non stop i tell u.

but no matter wat, we still won ryt?

hahah. i hope to go to bangkok but nvm.

lol.

the human jam. -_-

i remember how he actually make me cry by listening to this song.
today, i gotta admit tat i keep on playing tat song at my iTunes.
sadly to say, i cry again.
he send the song to me and told me to listen to the lyrics.
tat was the word he wanted to say to me.
don't gt me wrg.
he's nt my bf. but he used to be my goodfriend.
however, after he migrated to Australia, we've nvr keep in contact tat often.
after all these yrs, he knws me the best and how i feel deep inside everytime i got a problem w/o me telling him.
its a pity to lose a goodfriend like him.
im listening to the song again.
let me present u the song lyrics which means alot to me.

I swear by the moon and the stars in the skies
And I swear like the shadow that's by your side
I see the questions in your eyes
I know what's weighing on your mind
You can be sure I know my part

Cause I'll stand beside you through the years
You'll only cry those happy tears
And though I make mistakes
I'll never break your heart

And I swear by the moon and the stars in the skies
I'll be there
I swear like a shadow that's by your side
I'll be there
For better or worse,
Till death do us part,
I'll love you with every beat of my heart
And I swear

Ooo...
I'll give you every thing I can
I'll build your dreams with these two hands
We'll hang some memories on the walls

And when (and when) just the two of us are there
You won't have to ask if I still care
Cause as the time turns the page,
My love won't age at all

And I swear (I swear) by the moon and the stars in the skies
I'll be there (I'll be there)
I swear (and I swear) like the shadow that's by your side
I'll be there (I'll be there)
For better or worse,
Till death do us part,
I'll love you with every beat of my heart

And I swearI swear (I swear) by the moon and stars in the skies
I'll be there (I'll be there)
I swear like the shadow that's by your side
I'll be there (I'll be there)
For better or worse (better or worse),
Till death do us part (oh no),
I'll love you with every (every single) beat of my heart

I swear, I swear, oh... I... swear...

thank you, A****F.

i've had enuf of shopping and i declare tat im officially broke.
lol.
i shop again today buying unnecessary stuffs i tell u.
billabong, adidas, havainas and etc.
haizz..
naqiah and i first went to RC to meet those guys and plan with them ab tomorrow meeting at the stadium.
im totally excited when i think of it.
we then had our dinner at Burger King and enjoyed finger foods at Chippy, british takeaway.
the marsbars was superb.
try it if u had not done so.
we had a short walk and naqiah bought some stuffs for her dad and grandpa.
hey naq! i prefer tat ashworth wallet rather than that arnold palmer.
heheh.
after a whole lot of shopping, we decided to go home.
tat shopping freak wanna go shopping again with her family.
wow! she's worse than me i tell u.
hahah.
after all tat, we had fun bluetooth-ing.
naqiah changed her name to Osama bin Laden while i changed my name to George Bush.
so emman, u gt it right. im bush.
lol. overall, i've had fun with her. my evil twin sister.
well, i'll be meeting her again tomorrow for the soccer match at national stadium.
frankly speaking, im sick and tired of ur face. LOL! JK!

p/s. aisyah, u r welcome. i will give u the tix tomorrow. =)

let's gt this straight.
im not selling tickets to anyone.
so gt it urself.
hahah.
don be lazy, u lazy bums.
naqiah, i gt urs already.
heheh.

actually, i gt nth to say.
i'll update again tomorrow.
bye!

to my apple, i miss u too.

im back from the stadium which is totally awesome!
the cheer, the shouts and everything.
so as u ppl knw, Singapore won.
am i proud to be a singaporean or wat?
lol.
they kicked indonesia out during the grp stages by just playing a draw game, they beat malaysia in the penalty shoot out.
and im confident now that they will meet thailand, the best team i tell u.
i went there in red. (like duh~)
i shout like hell and im losing my voice.
i love my "ramli sarip" voice.
everyone there was also shouting.
but surprising hor coz im the only lady shouting like a madwoman.
during the penalty shoot out, i was holding on to my windbreaker and praying, hoping that they will win.
lewis saved and thus, s'pore won by the 5th penalty shoot out.
when m'sia was leadin 1-0, the stadium was so quiet and the m'sia supporters was dancing ard like in a dangdut club.
there was also one of the m'sia getting caught in some misbehaviour act which i donnoe wat.
lydia almost wanted to cry as we r on the verge of losing.
silly!
overall, its totally awesome.
i will wanna catch the finals!
heheh..

the jam which makes me slp for 1 hr.

let's see..
wat haf i been doing today..

i woke up at 9.30 am when Linda actually called me and told me to check my bank acct.
but i didnt check it out straight away.
instead, i took a bath and clean up the mess in my room.
then i cooked for myself and ate it while watching tv.
in the afternoon, mum called up to meet her at Orchard.
i thought she was going to shop with me but instead, she brought me to meet my enemy (doctor) at Orchard tower.
chet!
so yah, the enemy was kinda nice to me but i just stare at him blankly.
at tat time, i just feel like going back.
the number of trips to meet my enemy seems countless this few wks.
lol.
after consultation, he make me meet another enemy.
this is the greatest enemy i tell u.
its the injection.
i dun scream but i pinched my mum hard.
hahah.
after meeting those enemies i went to buy tickets for this saturday match.
its SOLD OUT!
i go like "BULLSHIT!"
nvm.
then my mum and i went to West Mall to meet up dad, bro and lil sis.
they shop but im just window shopping.
aiyah.. no mood sey after kener inject.
so my parents bought some stuffs and we head on to KFC.
the food that they order look very tempting.'
of coz lah kan..
there's chicken, burger, cheese fries, potato and many lah.
but i only ate a lil.
*lama2 tinggal tulang.*
after walking ard, my parents decided to make me feel happy by asking me whether i wanna buy a phone.
eh.. siaper taknak sey.
hahah.
so they gt me the Nokia 6288 which im sooooo lovin' it now.
it cost almost 300 bucks and mum even upgrade my line.
im so excited lah actually coz its the first time im using nokia phone as i've used sony ericsson, motorola, panasonic and many other brands but not nokia.
im nvr interested in nokia as its too common.
but oh well, sekali sekala tukar pikiran.
then after a short walk, we went home as lil sis was too tired after a whole day at school.
and now, im home chatting and blogging.

till then, good night.

p/s. i knw tat i haf the best parents in the world and no one can replace them. <3

its a disastrous morning to start off with.
thanks to the uncle for helping me coz if nt, i'll be in the hospital now.
choy!!
for once, i declined his offer of treating me to macdonald which is so unlike of me.

the colleagues kept on calling me after i asked them for help and hence, kinda disturbed my slp.
however, im thankful for their help.
especially khalis who does the honour of searching my name thru the wholebook.
midzi sms-ed and said tat he was chased away.
hahah.. sry guys.
a stay home day tomorrow coz i dont wanna gt scolded again by mum coz i really caused her to worry.
its a promise this time round mum.

ATIKAH!

its becoz of u im so in love with the song seribu tahun.
my current fave song plus two other songs.
hahah.

i had a nice chat with naqiah yday night abt a few things.
its kinda excite us up and somehow, cheer her up a lil after having to go thru a major disappointment.
suddenly, i brought up the topic on someone.
our ex schmate.
not tat i wanna heboh2 but its just tat she's related to it.
and she goes like, "ya Allah, dari dulu sampai skrg tak ubah2. braper byk kali dier nak bwat mcm gini pun aku tak tau. mcm tak puas2 gitu. ader jer benda yg tak kener."
i laughed and laughed when i hear her saying tat.
y? her expression was really funny.
and the voice tone was like.. i donnoe how to describe.
but she came back to her normal tone, and shes kinda pissed off.
as if it's really impt like tat.
unless we r someone special, its a different case.
so, wat we decided to do?
bomb it.
we r getting used to it that somehow, we knw tat talking abt us will nvr end.
the same hypocrisy she gave us will nvr changed and it she seems to sound tat we r at fault all the time.
like the saying goes, "a leaopard nvr change it spots."
be with her, and u knw wat i mean.

take a guess who is she.
a clue: a NA student.

a teka teki game! yaay! =P

more games up next!

no matter wat happens....

i'll be there..
just take me in into your darkest hour..
and I swear i'll never desert you nor will i let anybody hurt u..

somehow, i realized tat i can nvr and will nvr be a good friend to anyone no matter how hard i try bcoz in the end, i will still gt ditched and hatred by the ppl. hence, im starting to make ppl hate me coz i dont want to hurt them ever again. its a great feeling to see them happy than u urself happy.

=))

my life seems to revolve ard naqiah lately.
she's the one i turned to, talked to, joke with, went out with and many more.
im really grateful to her.
although i may gt irritated with her talks sometimes, she is still me bestfriend somehow and its my duty to listen and feel her.
unlike some friends who just claimed to be true fren or good fren or watever shit to me but did not prove it.
somehow, action speaks louder than words and dont talk much if u can't show it.
this is wat my mum haf always been saying it.
the other 3 bestfrens are now struggling for their lives as they will be sittting for their Os this yr.
i hope they are doing just fine and if u girls are reading this, pls call or msg me to let me knw abt your well-being.
its still the same old number tat i used since 6 yrs ago altho i claimed to be changing it soon. LOL.

im pretty much happy right now as i'll be getting a really good "present" from someone soon tomorrow.
oh god, im thankful.
plus im so anxious. hahah.

i've an appointment with the doctor and afterwhich i'll be meeting naqiah.
so tats all. *atleast i update my frens*

//sry no tagboard coz i dont want that someone to tag my board. =)

we've got one special sabo plan for aisyah later and i really can't wait.
midzi, azri and i was planning abt it instead of doing our work.
errkk..
oh yah! i was told by my 3 bodyguards, jon, midzi and azri to announce abt them to the whole world.
but im lazy lah..
and to my 3 bodyguards, thank you for ur companion during dinner and tat fcuking silly lame jokes!
mentang2 aku srg perempuan, krg bully eh.
takper2. satu hari akan ku balas.
lol. i hope u guys are reading my blog.
these 2 guys, midzi and azri, nvr fail to make my day.
err.. i hope their gfs won't be jealous.
we r just good buddies. =)

btw, bro is officially 15!
wow! we r not even 2 yrs apart.
hahah.
happy birthday bro!

i was reading all of aisyah entries and i sympathized with her.
i understand how she feels and wat she's going thru.
im sure its hard for her to accept the fact.
but hey my friend, you can find someone thousand, million times better than him.
he's not worth anything.
do u knw tat u r one gorgeous lady?
tat's my first impression on u.
i hope to see u looking soo happy during the weekends when u come to work ok?
to me, u r one great colleague.
u've been a great companion so far.

its been a pleasure rotting at home doing nth.
*sigh*
i managed to find a dvd of uefa champions league to accompany me thruout the whole noon.
the match between liverpool and ac milan.
y i nvr gt bored of watchng it?
firstly, the game was super good.
where liverpool was trailing 3-0 to ac milan.
but they managed to do a remarkable comeback in which the level up.
then comes the penalty which makes them won.
secondly, i saw my kaka on tv and i was like oh god, he's one handsome and cute guy.
my eyes was on him all the time.
not only tat, he's the key player too.
apple, to me, u r much more better than kaka.
so don jealous ok. =P

so i spent almost 3 hrs watching the whole match including the prize giving presentation.
when i'm done with tat, i did nth but surf the net.
bored!
i can't take it u knw.
i feel like going out but mum said its a no for me.
so i'll be the good daughter who listens to mum.
its the same routine again tomorrow.
arghh!

bro had a good laugh at me.
seeing me in adidas tracksuit which i've nvr wore be4. (a jacket and a trackpants)
pale looking face with a red specs on and a ponytail.
he thought i look funny but complemented tat i still look ok.
he even added tat i can pikat the apek by the streets.
siak punya adik.
haha.
i reached the place which i dread most.
and that is the clinic.
i was on self medication these few days coz my house has all kinds of medicine as mum works at medical place.
but i donnoe y she suddenly decided to make me go and confront my greatest enemy which is the doctor.
*bang!*
after confronting my enemy, dad bring us to al ameen.
and oh god, i met another enemy whch is the cat.
i can't eat in peace i tell u.
there's too many cats ard.
i was telling dad to chase the cat away.
i froze for a while whenever the cat was near me.
i wanted to shout but i can't.
too weak.
all the food on the table makes me wanna vomit.
and for the first time ever, i ate a lil.
*congrats syirah! finally u don't eat too much.*
mum was like "eh2 syirah.. wat a surprise to see u not eating as much as u do."
ok watever mum. lol.
dad was kind enuf to treat me to chocolate.
i cn eat that w/o vomitting. haha.
with that, i dont think i'll be working for the whole week.
hip hip hurray!
shopping anyone?
hahaha.
its weird to knw tat im still in the shopping mood.

to naqiah, im jealous of ur beautiful havainas sandal.
ehem! tgklah siaper yg pilihkan.. =P
so ur 50 bucks are all worth it my dear.
lol.

p/s. apple, i miss u too!! <3

the match was awesome.
Singapore won and oh boy, Laos really kena trashed.
naqiah and i went there with leon, ersyah and chee fun.
can somebody just tell chee fun that he's freaking cute?
oh yah. i've been telling him tat eversince i saw him.
naq was all excited bcoz of u knw i knw.
it was a pretty bad day for me.
down with a disease and im shivering most of the time.
holding naq's hand and told her to feel the coldness.
i hope she don't mind coz i've been touching her hand all the time.
we knw tat we r nt a lesbian. (lol!)
the most interesting part is when she leave me all alone just to go back with them.
*sobs*
i was alone at the big staircase and god knws how i feel.
the place was dark with only, i repeat ONLY guys ard.
my heart beat so fast tat i pray and hope nth happens to me.
i called up daddy and ask where is he and told him to hurry fetch me.
its eerie i tell u.
but now im here safe and sound blogging nonsensically.
=)

*oh god, pls make me fall in luv again.

quite an old but currently fave song.
i like the beat and it's kinda groovy?
bwahaha.

It's after midnight and shes on you phone (phone)
Sayin'come over cuz shes all alone (lone)
I could tell it was your ex by your tone (tone)
Why is she callin now after so long

Now, what is it that she wants
Tell me what is it that she needs
Did she hear about the brand new benz that you just bought for me
Cuz yall didnt have no kids

Or share no mutual friends
And you told me that she turned trick when yall broke up in 96..

HOOK
Wutcha gon' do when you cant say no
And the feelings start to show boy I really need to know and..
How ya gonna act
How ya gonna handle that
Wutcha gonna do when she wants you back

REPEAT HOOK

There's no need to reminisce bout the past (past)
Obviously cuz that shit did not last (last)
I Know how a woman will try to game you (you)
Don't get caught up because baby, you'll lose
Now what is it that she wants
Tell me what is it that she needs
Did she hear about the brand new Benz that you just bought for me
Cuz yall didnt have no kids
Didnt share no mutual friends
And you told me that she turned trick
When yall broke up in 96..

REPEAT HOOK 3X

Tell me why she on the phone in the middle of the night
Tell me why she is your life trying to get whats mine
She dont know me, shes about to know me
Im in you life thats how its gon' be
I seen her photo, she aint even all that
So if you want her back, you can take her back
Cuz game recognize game, i can do the same thing
Get it right, change or take back this ring

REPEAT HOOK 3X

i'll be back after my soccer match with naqiah at kallang. =)

pathetically with disease.
u might not wanna gt near me in case u might gt affected.
i'll update u more tomorrow.
good night! =)

perhaps, she wants me out of her sight.
i make sure i wil do just tat by give her one good talk of 'beautiful' words one day.
i complained to Hana telling her everything.
not 4getting midzi, azri and aisyah.
i just feel like letting the geram-ness go.
im truly frustrated abt this hokay!
i hope tat the apek by the street will fcuk her upside down.
bullshit!

ehem!
back to my beautiful story at the workplace.
its weird sometimes to knw that most colleagues of mine dont mind sharing their problems and personal life with me.
for e.g. i just knw a girl who works under an accessories section named atiqah also known as angelie.
we had lunch together so that the more, the merrier.
suddenly, she shared with me all her problems abt her bf.
saying that he will be in the detention barrack and how she actually feel.
i listened to her and told her my feedbacks.
i asked her y she trusted me and the reason is tat she thinks im a trustworthy person by looking at my personality and character.
weird? i knw.
but i tell u, i cnot gt my eyes off atiqah coz she's perfectly beautiful.
ermm. im not a lesbian. *surrender* =P
another person is midzi, khalis, aisyah, azri and the list goes on.
so i got a lot of problem to listen to.
hahah!
and the most interesting part is, all of them are attached and they shared with me all abt it.
*as if im bothered* =P
another day tomorrow, another story.

p/s. midzi, azri! u ate my cookie, u cookie monster. owe cookie, pay cookie tomorrow!
pp/s. aisyah, u deserve a better guy. u r such a gorgeous person which makes others easily attracted to u.

naqiah.. naqiah..
its ridiculous of u to make me suffer from hunger becoz of ur dream guy.
she pulled me just to meet tat guy i tell u.
we r otw to Sakura for our lunch when suddenly she received a msg stating that he's currently at her workplace.
my phone rang and the colleagues told me to pass the msg to naqiah saying tat he's coming.
guess wat she did?
she run back to her workplace and i just gotta follow her.
thank god u haf a friend like me who supports u in everything u do.
haha.

so, i've been getting free treats today coz all of them are trying to cheer me up after im having a bad mood for the whole day.
they stuff me with food.
maybe they just wanna make me fat. hmm..
naqiah bought a packet of mee and mrs fields cookies for me.
and im fully bloated.
aisyah treat me to kfc and she order lots of food.
chickens, burgers, cheese fries and etc.
oi! *kau nak aku mampos lantak ni semuer!*
hahahah!
next was hana who treats me to doughnuts.
all of them are trying to kill me wit food.
since im too full, i bring back home.

colleagues, thanks for everything. thanks for cheering up.
it's nice to knw u guys.

feel it, judge it.

I don't know what to feel.
Heart is dead.
Mind confused.
Don't know what to do.

Feel lost for many reasons.
Money, lust, hatred.
Can't handle it all.

Eyes crying.
Body dying.

No sound of hope.
Just quiet humming.
And distant echoes mourning.

"aku cinta padamu" - hanyalah ungkapan.

another off day and i've been spending my time slping all day long.
its to make up for the losses tat i've made for working full shift straight.
well, tats not the main purpose actually.
the main purpose is that i want to send my lil sister to school.
its the first tym she's going to school.
time past real fast and now, she's already 4.
mum and i send her to her school and she already feels like crying when we told her we gotta go back home.
she told mum tat she wants mum to teach her and not her teacher.
so, we lingered ard there for a while and tries to coax her.
there were also other kids crying w/o their parents ard.
i kinda pity them and instead of coaxing my lil sister, i coax them.
hahah.
for breakfast, they had honeystar.
so my sister was all excited abt it.
so when she went to wash her hands be4 eating, mum and i secretly left the place.
from outside, we can hear her shouting and crying, "nak mummy! mummy where?"
but its only for a while coz the teacher there was trying to calm her down.
sister.. sister.. gembeng jugak eh. (according to mum, im the worse one. =P)

so i went for breakfast with mum and after tat, we went to pasar coz i told mum to cook.
u knw.. the best food in the world is your own mum's cooking.
nth can change tat fact.
heheh..
ard 1 pm, dad picked us up to fetch lil sister from school.
its only half day today be4 we went to Lot 1.
he said he wants to buy me a new hp after seeing my current hp which is so pathetic.
but i told him i wanna try n look for a hp tat is in red colour.
possible? hahah. its mostly in black, silver, white and etc.
common horr.
after searching the net for a red hp, i found one and let's see wats his comment.
hahah..

p/s. what's happening to my red motorazr hp? anyone can repair tat damn hp?

Insyirah's Profile
Date Of Birth: 14 June 1990
Zodiac: Gemini

Current Occupation:
student/promoter

Proudest moment in your life:
being the top student when im 13.

Describe your ideal life partner:
a responsible and trustworthy person to be with for my entire life and someone who respects the elderly.

Describe your ideal wedding setting:
beach concept and something simple.

But your ideal job would be:
managing a hotel.

What do you do during your sparetime:
surf net, shopping.

Hobbies and Interests:
travel. internet. movies. milk. parties. gigs. foods. shop.

Favourite Foods and Drinks:
drinks - milk. tea. fruit juice. foods - mum's cooking. pasta. chinese food.

Favourite Female Singers:
britney spears. christina aguilera. celine dion. mariah carey. liza hanim.

Favourite Male Singers:
anuar zain. boyz II men. nick lachey.

Favourite Actor / Actress:
jessica alba. tom cruise. rosyam nor.

Most Memorable Movie:
just like heaven.

Favourite place to go for a long holiday:
europe.

Your idea of a romantic date:
a simple dinner by the beach surrounded by red tulips. (which is so impossible i tell u. hahah!)

Favourite Hang out Place:
McCafe.

What do you hope to achieve in 3 years time?
be a career minded woman.

If your could meet someone from the past or future, who would it be and why?
albert einstein. science exist bcoz of him and its sux!

What do you dislike most:
attention seeker. hypocrisy.

What do you think are your best and worst feature?
best will be my eyelid. worst will be my hair. its flat!

Describe yourself in 5 words:
sensitive. sociable. introvert. passionate. responsible.

Complete the sentence:
You'll never catch me dead wearing... bikini! LOL!
I'll never leave home without... handphone and wallet!

finally i gt to go out with fam today.
i was tired early in the morning to go work.
so i just skip it.
my parents bring us out with asyu and atey (my aunties) to Botanic Garden.
we walked ard there and enjoy the evening scenery there.
i gotta admit tat its a perfect spot for couples to "momotek".
hahah. *whatever*
i saw many things tat are obscene which im not gonna elaborate.
but one thing for sure is tat the food court there served great indian food.
the thosai makes me wanna vomit.
yucks! hahah.
but the murtabak combo supreme (mcm pizza) was superb.
try it!
im advertising that "mamak" shop.
they shud be proud of it. lol!

beautiful sister, alysya.

beautiful lil cousins. hani, effa, sofia and afini.

i was working the whole day to kill time so as not to feel bored and lonely.
i knw i tire myself out the whole day but i gt no choice.
mum kept asking y i wanna work full shift when i either work morning or afternoon.
i haf no ans to tell her.
i dun find the purpose of working actually. hmm...
she kept wanting me to quit after seeing my tired face evrynyt.
i guess she's just worried.
dnt worry mum.. im a strong daughter. hahah.

but yesterday was the worse working experince ever.
its the day i met a lot of fussy customer.
and u knw.. i feel like smacking their face with my shoe but i calm myself down.
seriously, i was showing them attitude and my temper.
errkk.. i knw its bad but i really can control it no more.
but watever it is, the friends there tried to calm me down.
hahah.

lunch was with aisyah.
she was fed up with me due to my "otak keling".
err.. sorry..
i cant decide wat to eat so we ended up walking everywhere and wasted 15 mins.
who cares ryt as long as im happy with wat im doing. but luckily she's patient. phew~
supper time, naq, hana and aisyah went together and they haf forgotten all abt me.
=(
nah.. but i dun mind.
the guys end up accompanying me.
and yah, i gotta thank yl for the milo treat.
we hang out at the lounge and its awkward to be the only opposite gender there.
but they kinda treat me as one. i mean not as a guy horr but involved me in parts of their conversation..
so, my days ended pretty well at RC and i love the environment there. =)
i will tell u more tomorrow..

aisyah, one gorgeous lady.

p/s. liverpool is currently losing to arsenal. damn!