;)

i've seen it coming and i nvr expect too much. neither do i pin any hopes on it. i was prepared to face it. weirdly, i did not feel sad nor down. i was happy just like how he was. finally he's no longer a virgin in relationship. he plucked up his courage to tell her and it's official now.

it's time to focus on what i really want right now.

my first and last.

sometimes, how i wish i am good with words. there are thousands of things that i wanted to jot down here to be kept as memories and wanting to read it again in the future. however, i always fail when it comes to expressing.

nevertheless, i wanna say that i had the best experience and memories recently. it was my first time on stage performing. performing have nvr been my interest but i do enjoy watching others perform. recently, i got a chance to act on stage in front of 1200 audiences. not only that, i got to perform dikir barat too! i've nvr imagine myself on stage performing but i just did it! with the help and guidance from my friends.

in future, im going to miss this and i knw i will no longer perform on stage when i started working.

thanks all for this memorable experience.

never judge me.

im not immature. i've learnt a lot in life which thought me what's wrg and right. im bloody 19 and if u think just because u are older than me, you are much wiser. even someone whose age is 30 can be behaving like some 18 year old. i nvr declare myself as a good person and neither can u judge whether im a good person. who are u to judge me when it wasn't u who created me and when u don't even knw me. there's always god who i can turn to and only He knows whats in my heart and whether i have bad intention. atleast im not behaving like some drunkard who turn to alcohol as my cure. i still have mission in life to accomplish than to be bothered abt these things. and if u think i should stop using God's name as an excuse to prove that im a good person, then i think u are wrong.

im a human being where i do still have my flaws. if im a perfect person, i might as well be an angel than a human. i learn how to be good, close to God but i nvr learn how to be a perfect human being without any sins. im going through a good life. with friends, family that care a lot about me. there's nothing more that i can ask for.

of F1 and Singapore

to be honest, im not a fan of F1.

i was watching F1 at uncle's place and i realized how beautiful our country is.

the skyscrapers, lights... simply just like monaco and those race track that u saw in the arcade.

man in white really makes our country prosperous and beautiful.

xoxo,

a proud singaporean.

First day of Hari Raya

i spent most of the time sleeping during raya visits due to the lack of slp on the night of raya. i went to bed at 12am and woke up at 4am in the morning to get ready. i hafta go off back to Kampung and i didn't manage to slp in the car cause dad was driving at 160km/h. no joke. i feel like i was on F1 track.

the moment i reach kampung, i slept together with Elydia.

the moment i reach aunt's house, i slept again.

this is my brief summary of my first day hari raya.

thanks to all friends for the wishes be it in FB, MSN, SMSes. i hope u all had a great raya this year despite me getting lesser collection. but it's the time with friends and families that matters most. i would like to seek for forgiveness if i had done anything wrong to u or did something which you dislike. afterall, im just human that can't escape from mistakes.

till then, selamat hari raya. maaf zahir dan batin.

Eid Mubarak

selamat hari raya aidilfitri to all!

i will be going back to kampung early in the morning after subuh prayers and i still havent pack my stuffs. will be back in singapore in the noon. take care of yourself and hope u enjoy your day later on. dress up well, girls! time to put on that make up, beautiful accessories, new clothes and also, the high heels. hehe.

till then, goodbye. will update about raya soon.

keampunan ku pohon sekiranya aku yang berdosa. (;

beauty of friendship

no matter how good or bad my friends are, i have the right to choose. it's not always about influence. did u see me change in any way then? did i just had my piercing done? did i just left my friends for another group friends?

each and everyone of my friends have their own speciality that matches with parts of my characters. to think that some people could just forsake some friends just because of one small thing is totally ridiculous. friends are like your lover/bf/fiance/husband. they mean the world to u. who do u come running to when u have problems?

i can never imagine life without friends and the close ones. each day we make new friends and it's totally a blessing from God to show or remind us that we are not alone in this world. there are others to be with us throughout our life in this world. never will i trade any of my friendships for anything else cause friends are like gems that are priceless.

it is;

a bank or credit on which we can draw supplies of confidence, counsel, sympathy, help and love.
a watch which beats true for all time, and never "runs down."
a balancing pole to him who walks across the tight rope of life.
the link in life's long chain that bears the greatest strain.
a harbor of refuge from the stormy waves of adversity.
one who considers my need before my deserving.
the jewel that shines brightest in the darkness.
a stimulant to the nobler side of our nature.
a star of hope in the clouds of adversity.
a diamond in the ring of acquaintance.

friendship-one soul in two bodies.

that's the beauty of friendship in my eyes.